what to do .............................
So I really like someone and I dont know what to do .I want to take the time for once to get to know someone before I just jump in with them into any place or in anyway. This person is so sweet and so sexy and so just grrrrrr . I really want her to like me, but sometimes like the taurus I am I call too much or try to hard. so I have decided to chill, not call so much , not try so hard , just be me. But at the same time that is me, hehe. I feel myself changing in massive ways right now and maybe that is why I want this person to like me so much. I want someone to see and share in this change with me. I have gone from being a complete and utter asshole to the women I am attracted to,to being this sweet patient nice guy.
I am learning slowly but surely to be patient and respectful. I only want now to give someone what they want in a person and in life. But still remain me and not get lost in the other person ad become something I am not either as a friend or more. I have been learning patience with my friends, because I figure if I learn patience with them I will know inheretantly how to be patient with the women in my life that I would like to be involved with.
I have grown so much even since i came back to this town in April of this year. I came back here jumped into the club scene, got whatever I wanted including all the women. I turned into a bit of a slut and figured out that sex is no biggie to alot of people. in SF you cant swing a cat o nine tails without hitting a poly person as it is. or some girl who's fetish is casual sex or sport fucking. at first it was great but its also part of the reason why I have dropped out of the "scene" as they call it. I am 34 I want the rest of my life to have some sort of meaning to it. I would like to have long and lasting friendships and if I do have sex with someone I dont want it to be sport. I did that in my younger days and I dont need that anymore. I did that type of shit because I didn't love myself and it was part of my insecurities.
So what to do ....... go back to being the asshole or keep being the hopeless romantic I am becoming .....
mortuusnox:
Damn, good luck with all that
stitchy:
omg. i have never heard of 'sport fucking' and i've lived here '97. assholes suck. don't be one. my advice is to be yourself and don't worry about calling her. if she is nice and likes you too she won't mind.