age: 25 (Apr 30, 1988)
MEMBER SINCE: March 2012
occupation: Teacher of the Severely Handicapped
gets me hot: sexy, intelligent men and women. glasses help.
i lost my virginity: to my gay best friend.
into: honestly and self exploration
sign: Taurus
makes me happy: progress
most humbling moment: Hearing a nonverbal autistic child speak his first words, at age 5.
makes me sad: Domestic violence and child abuse
body mods: tattoos, tattoos, and soon to come, more tattoos!
BLOGS
one day i guess i should write about something other than how much i love my career. well, here goes. i guess i'll get all serious.
i'm married. i have been for nearly two years. this man i married, we've been together since we were in high school. he's a very sweet person, i consider him my best friend, but over the past two years it's been feeling more and more like he is just that, my friend. we have fun, we laugh, we joke, but i feel like i have outgrown him.
i actually talked to his dad about the way i've been feeling. even his dad said i've outgrown him. i've changed as a person, grown up, and he's still the 19 year old boy that moved in with me. it hurts. i can't help but wonder if he feels left behind.
he's so attached to me. financially, emotionally, he can't take care of himself right now. i pass my days constantly bouncing back and forth between feeling like i deserve better and thinking i should be better to him. i owe it to him, right? he married me. he took this fucked up little girl that i was and gave her the self confidence to chance her dreams. and now, i've outgrown him because he helped me.
and so i sit alone in our room while he plays dungeons and dragons at a friends house, wondering if the grass is greener on the other side, or if i should just learn to be content with a man who is nothing if not amazingly kind.
i'm married. i have been for nearly two years. this man i married, we've been together since we were in high school. he's a very sweet person, i consider him my best friend, but over the past two years it's been feeling more and more like he is just that, my friend. we have fun, we laugh, we joke, but i feel like i have outgrown him.
i actually talked to his dad about the way i've been feeling. even his dad said i've outgrown him. i've changed as a person, grown up, and he's still the 19 year old boy that moved in with me. it hurts. i can't help but wonder if he feels left behind.
he's so attached to me. financially, emotionally, he can't take care of himself right now. i pass my days constantly bouncing back and forth between feeling like i deserve better and thinking i should be better to him. i owe it to him, right? he married me. he took this fucked up little girl that i was and gave her the self confidence to chance her dreams. and now, i've outgrown him because he helped me.
and so i sit alone in our room while he plays dungeons and dragons at a friends house, wondering if the grass is greener on the other side, or if i should just learn to be content with a man who is nothing if not amazingly kind.
APRIL 2013
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