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make it deep make it fast this pain was built to last

I am about to pick at a scab, that has been healed for years.
"I have my Black-Jack gum and that feeling that there is something rank in air"
I have put this off and put this off. I am not sure what emotions will conjure up yet here we go?
I over...
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So the new doctor in my HMO food chain seems nice. I am so tired of their protocol. At least she knows what RSD is, that is a plus. I still can not get over the shock of myself. I still can not believe it. The seizure has managed to control all of my movements and I do not see how people live their lives...
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Schoooolllls Out for Summer........ Schoooooolllllssss Out ForEVER
To the "neih sayers" to the "doubters" to those who said I could not manage and to the Tracy Coes...... FUCKING DEAN"S LIST BITCHES !!!!

Algebra (last year of High School Algebra)------- A
English Comp 1010 ------------------------------------- A
General Sociology ---------------------------------------- A
Survey of Broadcasting -------------------------------- A
Basic Photography --------------------------------------- B
Class Piano ------------------------------------------------- A

All a total...
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So I was watching a commercial about the Barry Manolo Caribbean Cruise. WoW I thought to myself. Now there is some fucking white people in that audience. WoW!!
So In other news. If you find my laying on the floor flopping around call 911. Apparently do not offer to help me. I had my first ever seizure at the Best Buy. It was so weird....
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" Well I'm taking my time
I m just moving along
You'll forget about me after I am gone..."

Words of wisdom from Boston.
This river runs deep and emotion is strained
The single thought of perversion festers in the brain

I do not know what it is but I can not shake this sadness
and the even sad part is I am not sure...
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A song that makes me think of you
I have learned to always cry on cue
I see a ghostly image a reminder of you
the moment I lost myself in the crowded book selves
I read some edgar poe and fell into sadness about you
I returned home and fell apart at the seams
my eyes are blurred at the thought of broken dreams...
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edited from stupidity...

a reconsideration....

I should be fortunate that my inconvenience is as small as it is......


So I was in art class looking at who I thought would be the future Mrs +ad then I realized. FUCK IT !! I am broke, I have no job and not because I do not want to work , but because my nervous system decided to...
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So I have met her. Now I have to trick her into going out with me. This chic is awesome. AWESOME. All semester I have noticed her and I have tried to figure out how to talk to her and then last night it happened. She is fucking awesome and we have so much in common. Well photographically speaking. Plus I put two and two...
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MINE MINE MINE !!!!! I bought a new camera.. I wanted a digital camera, but digital SLR cameras are still above my price range. I was skeptical on buying this camera since I am currently living on my retirement, so a Friend put it into respective for me. She said spend the money and who knows maybe you will take a photo that is...
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I am noticing a pattern. Some of my favorite artist are the ones that take their lives. Maybe I will not truly appreciate my own work till I am dead. I have fallen in love with Francesca Woodman. I would love to be able to go in this direction, yet I am limited. I am a unshapely male (an ugly one at that) and have...
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