i am so inactive on the internet. i started going to the art institute of Philadelphia. don't make fun, its just to learn the computer programs for visual effects and animation. i know beter than to get a real art education from the Macdonald's equivalent of art schools. if theres anyone there for painting, don't be stupid.

im falling into adulthood and depresion. i had a one night stand with the girl i dreamed about since high school till now. sucks to be used by someone you felt that way about. guess thats how one grows up.

i turned 20 a week ago. my friend got me a fantastic birthday present. ninja, a comic by Chippendale from my favorite band lightning bolt. ok lightning bolt is kind of new to be a favorite band but at the least in ten years they will be my favorite band or the band that i always wished would have made more albums.

ninja is intresting, a little bit of a pain on the eyes as its a tad jumbled, but you can roughly follow the chaos.

despite the prediction in my last post things are getting better. not tremendously but the curve is up instead of down like it was for a while. and i think i know what to do to keep it that way.

ever have one of those weeks where every morning you wake up and you think to yourself "shit i woke up.."

the people you once new and loved start to disappoint you. the things that kept you going have started to die, and theres just so many little holes in everything that the whole infrastructure that was your comfertable life has begun to crumble.

or maybe your just going crazy.

i think this is gonna get bad

so the new Radiohead is amazing. its been a while since Radiohead even crossed my mind until i heard an awesome album at someones house and when i asked what it was my dreams were answered when he said Radiohead. i downloaded it that day and i'm having trouble listening to anything else.

besides that iv been making art for real again and i'm exited about what i'm doing but i might become a hermit

i saw the Darjeeling limited today. it was quite good but made me sad because i don't have any brothers. just two very distant sisters. i still think the royal Tannenbaums is Wes Anderson's best movie but this came close. I need to abuse my free movies more often. its one of the reasons i started working at the ritz but iv been so busy.

so today i got tired of being in the box called my house, and went for a walk. i wanted to get some art supplies, but after my 6 mile walk (could have taken the buss just felt like walking) it was closed. took the buss home, at the stop chatted with this older guy. he mentioned state college PA, and iv been around there a few times because my moms friend from college lives there. he said that when he was my age he went on a road trip and Pennsylvania, Colorado and California were the most beautiful states he's seen. i forgotten how beautiful parts of my state were, and that Philadelphia was not the only thing worth seeing. i want to run away some day. iv already spent 19 years of my life here. thats one fourth already if I'm lucky which I'm probably not.

on my way home though, i walked by this troll who was on the phone walking her dogs talking about something trashy, the dogs were all running around full of joy and action all cute and crazy and just as i was about to neel down to pet one she barks at me "HOW BOUT WALKING ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THE STREET" i was confused for a second until i realized that she was unhappy that my human presence got her dogs to be dogs and not trained robots on wheals that wont tug her arm a little.

i just stood baffled that someone could be such a bitch to a complete stranger who is doing nothing but walking. fucking animals.

i had one of these a while ago, but didn't want to pay, but i got a better job where i can now. I get really easily side tracked... i end up learning a lot about shit some how. If i have one expertise its trivial dinosaur information. i know right. I'm like 5 mentally. recently i started learning about vikings. basically there the shit. I want to make a comic about the viking gods. ah why am i typing this... I'm gonna post it too aren't I.. I hate the fucking internet