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Oh my god, he really is the cutest thing isn't he?! I'm beside myself with anticipation at finally meeting him today, I can't bloody wait! It will definitely be a kiss-fest!

Im afraid my Nanny isn't so easy and I am worried sick about it to be honest. She's not that well, in fact she's in hospital again today having another blood transfusion. She worries about everything and being her favourite, she'll be worried sick about me being pregnant, let alone having to do it all on my own!! Still, there's nothing I can do about it but tell her when I feel the time is right. My mum reckons she should tell her, but I'm not having any of that. It's my baby, and my news and mother should just butt out!

Wow, I wish I had a nice TV - my laptop and TV will become my best friends as time goes on and my current telly is crap. I'm gonna be stuck in the house most of the time in the coming months so I might as well get used to it. A really good TV is on my wishlist.

You're right; dates are for losers. I have now realised that I have put far too much of myself into 'meeting someone' as if living my life on my own and enjoying it with or without a partner is not important. Obviously, given my circumstances now, and the fact that he's left me alone since I told him has given me loads of time to think. I now realise that what is important is to be happy with yourself first and foremost and not just sit and wish there was someone else about. Being a single person doesn't mean you're invalid in comparison to being in a couple and from what I hear, most couples are fucking miserable in their current relationships anyway!

Fucking hell, I'm getting more bitter and twisted by the hour!!

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mmm, yes i understand that more than you know.
Batshit crazy. almost every single last one of my exes or any guy who tries to get a sneak at my snatch.

no good.

You should watch the show, it's ace!

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Well the new haircut will certainly make her think you're ready to move on, that's for sure! Good for you darlin'.

And you're right, they will just get some butcher to it if you don't get it done yourself, so you were wise to get a good job done prior I think.

I thought your hair was pretty lovely too! Hehe Yeah, Afghanistan ain't somewhere you'd really wanna go eh. My little brother joined the army at 16 and he's due to go out to Afghanistan and Iraq starting in June, basically the minute he turns 18, it makes me feel sick just thinking about it. From what you've said though this is something you've wanted to do for a long time, and at your age, I would imagine you'll be one of the oldest new recruits. I think it's an exciting time for you, and you have no idea what kinds of adventures you're going to experience. You have a lot to look forward to and that's really cool

I have thought of a few names already actually, some of them are Irish as it goes. I'm not a conventional person though so they're all a bit 'out there'. My friends and family are laughing a lot and not taking any of them seriously. I think it's a really tough decision what to call a real person and I alone will be responsible so I'm taking it very seriously indeed! Anyway, I have a long way to go yet eh, my baby isn't due till the 12th August 2008!

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Hey my sis is due her baby any day and if it's a boy it'll be called Sonny!! Hehe

I like to be different - my child will also be different, and free and independent and will feel secure enough to be confident in itself. My worst nightmare would be to have a clone of the rest of society. 99.9% of the population are complete scumbag cunts!

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Looks nice!!

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Well I'm just glad that I know now what a waste of space he is and that way I can get on with my life with my baby.

You'll soon get used to the wig hon, I remember having mine shaved off when I was a rebellious teenager, it is bloody cold! Hehe What made you decide to do it right now anyway?

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that is kinda creepy :[

In that case, you must let me know the minute you go to either Nelson, Sultan or Collingwood, although my guess is it'll be Sultan first. I'll show you the local sights

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Well I'm sure you'll pass through Sultan at some point, I'd put money on it!

These are exciting times for you honey, soooooo much to look forward to

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hello!!... :]

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You know something, I just thought. Its strange I find Father Ted so entertaining...since I have a slight phobia of nuns

I would love nothing more at this moment than to have nothing to do! Enjoy it and relaaaaaaaaaaaaaaax!

Gorgeous photo btw, I've never been one for taking photos but as I get older I wish I had done as there are huge, massive, gigantic chunks of my life that are missing. My memory isn't what it used to be either so some things are probably lost forever, how sad is that?!

I try now to remember to take photos wherever I am and whatever I'm up to. Its the same with my mobile; I now regularly back it up and my blog on here. Sometimes its really nice to look back; often you'll be surprised at how far you've come!

Yeah.. but I scare away most potential mates

lol.. there are very few good ones.. and many that I think are good that get scared away... like I said.. it's disheartening..