my immediate family is insane, and i really don't understand how i came from them. well, i'm sure .. that was my dad's bit of genetics coming in to play, cause ... like my mom .. my pre-op tranny brother (aka sis) is apparently going to be a life long victim supporting users.

tonight, i get a frantic phone call that 'terri', her roommate and 'good friend' is "in the hospital on suicide watch" but .. 'terri' text'd this on her cellphone from the hospital. terri also brought my bro/sis to a dealer's place hoping that once she was there, she'd cover a debt of a few grand.

my response was "why the fuck are you even going? it's not your problem"

an hour of going over in many different ways, how none of 'terri's' problems are her's and she's being taken advantage of. it was like, one of those moments where you feel really bad that an elderly person was scammed... except, this is my slightly older sibling.

my younger sister is mia, haven't seen or spoken to her in like 5 years.

my extended family looks at my immediate family with this kind of expression .. O_o ... and it's totally justified. no one understands why those 3 are spun; myself included. why be a victim? i don't get it?

oh yeah, what really pissed me off was i spent an hour talking to her (him). a fucking hour. do you have any idea how hard it is to be ... supportive of your dumbass brother? for fuck sakes, i wanted to get in his face and yell a little before talking sense....

and the 'thanks' was mid sentence she decides to call someone else on a second phone while i'm speaking. i hear a phone ring while i'm talking support. "are you calling someone?" "yes" "that really pisses me off, i'm talking to you and you can't even listen?..." "..mumble into other phone" ... so fucking pissed. i hung up.