fantasy: hmm...sorry...i was too busy thinking about it.
makes me sad: things that aren't happy
heroes: Stephen Fry
into: Playing Drum-set (either my real one or my electronic set), Music, traveling, meeting interesting people, naturally beautiful people with natural curves (not all that into fake-plastic people).
body mods: half-sleeve tattoo on my left arm, tattoo on my upper back between my shoulder-blades. Three earrings.
i lost my virginity: listening to the song "Karma" by Delirium late one night by candlelight.
Work has been going really well, I am doing far above what they want from me and even impressed a fellow who oversees a totally different department. It feels good kicking total ass at a job you really like, plus the two other people in my department are great people and help make the vibe really laid-back. So for the happy portion, here is a pic of me from this past week.
Not Happy:
Two nights ago I was talking to a friend, and while giving her advice on why it really is important to be honest and never bottle things up, I made the mistake of letting it out of the bottle that I have had a crush on her since I first saw her years ago. Now don't get me wrong, the feeling of no longer having that bottled up inside me is a great weight off my chest, BUT I now fear that her sudden lack of communication with me ever since I said it, makes me wonder. Anyways, this partially is connected to my prior weekend and me feeling like a fucking Monet painting (only good from a distance, never seen up close. Aka, I am convenient but when I actually try, they just pull away and become distant to me). Honestly, just hurt. Tired of being hurt. Is it so hard to find someone genuine in this world that maybe thinks I am worth their time? Sorry, I promise something happy eventually. Right now, just feeling undesirable.
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~T
Two part Blog post, one happy, one not so happy.
Happy:
Work has been going really well, I am doing far above what they want from me and even impressed a fellow who oversees a totally different department. It feels good kicking total ass at a job you really like, plus the two other people in my department are great people and help make the vibe really laid-back. So for the happy portion, here is a pic of me from this past week.
Not Happy:
Two nights ago I was talking to a friend, and while giving her advice on why it really is important to be honest and never bottle things up, I made the mistake of letting it out of the bottle that I have had a crush on her since I first saw her years ago. Now don't get me wrong, the feeling of no longer having that bottled up inside me is a great weight off my chest, BUT I now fear that her sudden lack of communication with me ever since I said it, makes me wonder. Anyways, this partially is connected to my prior weekend and me feeling like a fucking Monet painting (only good from a distance, never seen up close. Aka, I am convenient but when I actually try, they just pull away and become distant to me). Honestly, just hurt. Tired of being hurt. Is it so hard to find someone genuine in this world that maybe thinks I am worth their time? Sorry, I promise something happy eventually. Right now, just feeling undesirable.
Happy:
Work has been going really well, I am doing far above what they want from me and even impressed a fellow who oversees a totally different department. It feels good kicking total ass at a job you really like, plus the two other people in my department are great people and help make the vibe really laid-back. So for the happy portion, here is a pic of me from this past week.
Not Happy:
Two nights ago I was talking to a friend, and while giving her advice on why it really is important to be honest and never bottle things up, I made the mistake of letting it out of the bottle that I have had a crush on her since I first saw her years ago. Now don't get me wrong, the feeling of no longer having that bottled up inside me is a great weight off my chest, BUT I now fear that her sudden lack of communication with me ever since I said it, makes me wonder. Anyways, this partially is connected to my prior weekend and me feeling like a fucking Monet painting (only good from a distance, never seen up close. Aka, I am convenient but when I actually try, they just pull away and become distant to me). Honestly, just hurt. Tired of being hurt. Is it so hard to find someone genuine in this world that maybe thinks I am worth their time? Sorry, I promise something happy eventually. Right now, just feeling undesirable.
(Expand blog to see video)
~T