Ever have one of those days were nothing goes to plan, feels right and would have been better spent in bed having never gotten up? Yah that was my day today.

I am currently back in Edmonton, having spent almost 5 months living primarily in a motel room in a depressing little town in northern Saskatchewan. I hade to leave to the job half way through a 10 day out 4 day in rotation, because I was getting depressed. Loss of pride in work, as I'm a 4th year plumber, didn't care about my career, made no effort... just signs I knew from last summer that I was sinking back into the black abyss. This has caused my eating habbits, where I was trying to lose weight, to over eat and start putting weight back on, my sleeping pattern is so out of whack I'm constantly tired (I have sleep apnea so sleeping is a problem as it is) and I'm a very social person but I can't bring myself to be around co workers and have started to isolate myself.

Dinner arrangements for tonights Season 2 of Game of Thrones is on HBO Canada at like 9pm making it too late for my friend so all the stuff I purchased and planned for dinner will most likely go to waste So that really sucked.

Then I finally met a girl, that for the first time could make me laugh more then the other way around, didn't care if i worked out of town, wasn't needy and had the same sharp and demanted humor as myself. Get a text saying she was seeing someone else, that she was sorry and that I was a really great guy..... I'm not sure if that is women code for something as I have been told this by a few other girls that didn't last long because of my constant out of town location placement for work.

And to top it all off, I have had a spare bedroom up for rent in the little condo I live in. Got a call, met the person who was interested. I liked what I heard and saw from this girl, told her she could have the spot and started to decline other calls, now this person has gone...

Ever have one of those days were nothing goes to plan, feels right and would have been better spent in bed having never gotten up? Yah that was my day today.

I am currently back in Edmonton, having spent almost 5 months living primarily in a motel room in a depressing little town in northern Saskatchewan. I hade to leave to the job half way through a 10 day out 4 day in rotation, because I was getting depressed. Loss of pride in work, as I'm a 4th year plumber, didn't care about my career, made no effort... just signs I knew from last summer that I was sinking back into the black abyss. This has caused my eating habbits, where I was trying to lose weight, to over eat and start putting weight back on, my sleeping pattern is so out of whack I'm constantly tired (I have sleep apnea so sleeping is a problem as it is) and I'm a very social person but I can't bring myself to be around co workers and have started to isolate myself.

Dinner arrangements for tonights Season 2 of Game of Thrones is on HBO Canada at like 9pm making it too late for my friend so all the stuff I purchased and planned for dinner will most likely go to waste So that really sucked.

Then I finally met a girl, that for the first time could make me laugh more then the other way around, didn't care if i worked out of town, wasn't needy and had the same sharp and demanted humor as myself. Get a text saying she was seeing someone else, that she was sorry and that I was a really great guy..... I'm not sure if that is women code for something as I have been told this by a few other girls that didn't last long because of my constant out of town location placement for work.

And to top it all off, I have had a spare bedroom up for rent in the little condo I live in. Got a call, met the person who was interested. I liked what I heard and saw from this girl, told her she could have the spot and started to decline other calls, now this person has gone MIA leaving me without any idea if she is still interested or not and with my having left my current job, the out of town pay/expense pay payed for all my bills....

The worst part of this all is the stress its causing. I'm a diabetic, type 2, so stress effects me, my eating habbits and everything else I have been battleing since August last year. Only time I'm really able to get any good eating habbits and exercise in to play is when I'm home. My motels firdge is soooo small and no freezer so my Weight Watcher meals have to be purchased across town every day. very frustrating.

So who's hiding the reset button? I think I need it for today. Heres hoping that the following week, filled with doctors appointments, work talks and possibly looking for new work will be productive. Was looking forward to heading back to BC for Easter but with current state of mind, not sure if I could handle it.