So I realized today what my biggest frustration has been recently. Its not that she doesn't want to be with me, that is mildly upsetting, as it usually is to know that someone you really like just doesn't feel the same way. But in general I know that the sexual relationship I have with her is not a permanent situation, and that our friendship is separate and will last longer than the sex. My biggest frustration has been the lack of affection. I have become so accustomed to constant affection. I have never tried so hard in my life to get affection from someone, and when the end result is something barely resembling affection with what seems like almost resentment that I should expect a little affection in return, is really frustrating. And its not her, or maybe im telling myself that its not her so that I don't put all my anger and frustration into the same box as her, but I don't think its her. She has made it very clear what she wants out of this, and I am okay with that.
Im happy with my life right now, but im also frustrated, its hard leaving the realm of thinking you know exactly what you want from life and entering the reality of having no fucking clue what you what or where to go next
Im happy with my life right now, but im also frustrated, its hard leaving the realm of thinking you know exactly what you want from life and entering the reality of having no fucking clue what you what or where to go next
And yes, the emotions you're feeling right now with having no clue what you want or where to go next ARE very frustrating. It's like you're standing in the middle of the street, going, "Awright, NOW what!?" Don't forget to take some time for yourself and just let yourself relax without worrying about anything (or anyone) else. Be nice to you.
Emotions are a pain in the ass.