well it feels..... horrible to be back from vacation! lol i hate living here. and see that fag in my picture the one with long hair? i swear we have horrible luck with our drummers. he is such a selfish asshole i hope he changes 4 the better but i dnt think its gonna happen. and of course thats when we really start getting good and ppl start to dig our sound he wants to be an idiot! will i ever win?

ian.....

this really sux, im not going to have band practice for 5 freaking weeks!!!! ugh!!!! on top of that.... i wont see amy for a whole month..... and im missing 36 crazyfists kittie candiria and 12 tribes for going to florida, doesnt really seem worth it if u ask me dumb vacations!

my life sux i swear girls are like so stupid to me sumtimes i mean why sit there and get mad because i havent asked u to be my gf and then once i do, why do you reject me and tell me that ur afraid i might be ur "rebound" bf? thats freaking stupid.


btw mary is definately the best suicide girl ever end of story

so tell me y i have to miss only prolly the greatest show to ever come to maryland. i mean friggin 36 crazyfists kittie, candiria, and 12 tribes im so blown its not even funny this is like the worst thing to happen to me.... so i did it the first time in my life i cheated on a gf i feel like shit.......

i think ppl should not date b4 the age of 18 (dont ask) wow so the big concert is on sunday. the question is, am i ready for it after that horrible last practice? well i guess saturday will tell me..... i think i should take lessons eventually because i think that would help me.... but i mean everyone but my highest critix say i sound good... so who should i believe? should i just believe in whatever emotion comes out of me? oh well i cant wait to see some fireworks

well i tell you what i had such a fun time at the journey concert its so funny i must be going soft. life is full of questions for me.... but im looking forward to our concert on sunday thank god for that.

man has this been a crazy week or what? i have a job offer a really good one..... but i dont know if im gonna take it..... i found a girl i really like a lot but i dont know if im gonna take her.... i have a really fun band,..... but i dont know if im gonna stay there..... is there anything i am sure of? why do i always question my self?

hi ppl not that anyone is gonna read this but..... ya i have had an interesting day.... it was kinda good, i got to go to this sales training class thingy for motorola to help me do better with my sales it was nice they gave me free food. but i keep thinking about whats happening this friday and im not sure if i really want to go through with it..... and i keep thinking about amy.... but i dont know what i should do.... its been so long since ive felt like being in a relationship.... and i meet some1 that may change that.... but idk if i should amy........

ian