Fears:
-My biggest fear is absolutely that someone I love, namely David and/or Henry, will either join or get drafted into the U.S. army. That's pretty much a death sentence, in the sense that they most likely be shipped off to Iraq where they would kill innocent Iraqi's, and probably be killed themselves, or at the very least extremely injured. So it would be a death sentence in the sense they they would kill and be killed.
-That something horrible (in general, non-specific) will happen to someone I love, be it a friend or a family member. This one pretty much explains itsself, I should think.
-That college will break up my relationship with Henry. I'm not saying that I think this will happen, it's just that little nagging thing in the back of my mind. I'm afraid that he'll meet another girl who he likes just as much, or more, than me. Or even if he doesn't fall in love with someone else, I'm afraid of him having a momentary lapse of judgement, be it while he's drunk, stoned, or sober, and fucking another girl. That would kill me. To know that he loves me, and yet he could do something that would hurt me so much. That's one of my biggest fears.
-That I won't get into college. Despite the fact that my grades are good and that I am in a sufficient amount of extracurricular activities, I'm afraid that for whatever reason, I will get rejected by every school I apply to. I need a future.
-Last, for now, I'm terrified of gaining back all the weight I've lost. I honestly think I would rather die then go back to the way I was. Disgusting.
Okay bye.
There's nothing here to take for granted.
With each breath that we take
the hands of time strip youth from our bodies.
We fade,
memories remain,
as time goes on.
-peace