age: 28 (Mar 31, 1984)
MEMBER SINCE: July 2011
occupation: early childhood education.
body mods: ink. nipple piercings.
makes me sad: injustice. stupidity. ignorance. intolerance. bullying.
i lost my virginity: being a stupid teenager.
sign: aries
heroes: jim morrison. people who aren't afraid to be themselves.
gets me hot: laughter. licking. massages. spankings. being tied up. lingerie. toys. tasting myself on my lover's lips. being teased.
makes me happy: orgasms. writing. music. reading. tattoos. kissing. celtic spirituality. laughing. friends. piercings. higher education. love. puppies.
crush: the husband... and paul rudd. jason segel. funny men = love.
most humbling moment: meeting my (step)son for the first time. saying "i do" to my husband.
but i don't know what specifically needs to change.
my job definitely. don't get me wrong, i love teaching preschool. it's amazing. but....i didn't graduate from college and then complete 2/3 of a masters to work for 9.25/hour. and before i sound too whiny, i am just thankful to have a job currently...and one that i enjoy most of the time...but i know i am capable of something more challenging i just need to pursue it.
anyway. so i know that change needs to happen. but i KNOW there's something more.
i'm completely in love with my husband. our relationship isn't perfect by any means...but it's amazing and fun and complex in a good way. so not that.
i just can't quite put my finger on what it is that has me feeling stagnant. but i do. maybe it's just being momentarily stuck in a rut. work, eat, have sex, sleep, shower, work. that is pretty much my day and the sex is sadly now just when i'm awake....stupid 9 or 10 hour days catching up with me.
maybe what i'm really upset about has nothing to do with routine or being stuck or bored...maybe it's just that i'm hating the fact that i'm an adult. and i don't want to be. it feels...lame.
or maybe i'm just tired......
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