IPOD
RADIO
Well this post is for Sheena who requested MOAR at the end of my last blog... your timing couldn't have been better. I was perving out on these pictures Mal sent me this morning.
21 days until I am with my lover again, until then I STILL MISS SEX!
dljfhalsiufhapoiuhdoawy8w9reyshdsoq7 stickitinmybuttkthx
In other news, my birthday was less than grand. I still do not have cable at home, and am still sitting here bored at my mothers.
21 days until I am with my lover again, until then I STILL MISS SEX!
dljfhalsiufhapoiuhdoawy8w9reyshdsoq7 stickitinmybuttkthx
In other news, my birthday was less than grand. I still do not have cable at home, and am still sitting here bored at my mothers.
all this noise, its making my brain hurt. will somebody please let scrabble know i am a W word ending in hore. thanks.
i have been drawing with the bag of sharpies again. i think its for someone, though i am not sure who for yet. beyond this i am still a failure. still no school, still not back in my apartment, still lacking much to say.
i miss sex
i have been drawing with the bag of sharpies again. i think its for someone, though i am not sure who for yet. beyond this i am still a failure. still no school, still not back in my apartment, still lacking much to say.
i miss sex
i feel like i have been kicked in the teeth. i believe this hurricane business has been one of the most draining experiences i have had to deal with this year. this city has fallen apart, resources are gone, spirits are low and personally, my will has been broken. whatever, my problem, not yours...moving on.
i am in a horrid mood, sobering up after a long night of drinking and scrabble. i'm fighting off sleep to talk to the morning friends i so desperately miss, unfortunately the pickled remains of my brain is lacking any words worth saying. sleep must be soon to come.
this continuous drinking has a great deal to do with the approaching dates. october means a few things for me. oct 1st is my 22nd birthday, nothing special about this age, just another year.
more importantly, this time of year leaves me thinking non stop about one person. one of the handful of memories i carry around from my youth, my last birthday with my father. my 5th birthday was spent in the hospital conference room in witchta falls. he was too sick to leave so we went there. there were bubbles, a cake, a hospital gown on a shriveled man looking 3 times his age, and the skates. the skates he gave me haunt me. how silly.
i was writing this, and at the moment i realized i was crying i also realized i left my camera on in chat. woops.
anywho
the skates, are the brightest memory i have. mine had blue straps, not leather, but heres a picture....
so these are on my mind. he is on my mind. i keep walking around holding his drum sticks, wearing his t shirts, i would be wearing the skates if i still owned them. i guess another girl with daddy issues, whats new right.
tears
sorry...i was sad...it came out here. don't mind me.
i am in a horrid mood, sobering up after a long night of drinking and scrabble. i'm fighting off sleep to talk to the morning friends i so desperately miss, unfortunately the pickled remains of my brain is lacking any words worth saying. sleep must be soon to come.
this continuous drinking has a great deal to do with the approaching dates. october means a few things for me. oct 1st is my 22nd birthday, nothing special about this age, just another year.
more importantly, this time of year leaves me thinking non stop about one person. one of the handful of memories i carry around from my youth, my last birthday with my father. my 5th birthday was spent in the hospital conference room in witchta falls. he was too sick to leave so we went there. there were bubbles, a cake, a hospital gown on a shriveled man looking 3 times his age, and the skates. the skates he gave me haunt me. how silly.
i was writing this, and at the moment i realized i was crying i also realized i left my camera on in chat. woops.
anywho
the skates, are the brightest memory i have. mine had blue straps, not leather, but heres a picture....
so these are on my mind. he is on my mind. i keep walking around holding his drum sticks, wearing his t shirts, i would be wearing the skates if i still owned them. i guess another girl with daddy issues, whats new right.
tears
sorry...i was sad...it came out here. don't mind me.
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i wont have power for a few days, txt me if you have my number, ask mal if you know i wont mind you having it. ILL MISS YOU GUYS chat lovers and sg friends. KISSES
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and the latest news cast. look for the waves about 40 seconds in, flying over the seawall
i wont have power for a few days, txt me if you have my number, ask mal if you know i wont mind you having it. ILL MISS YOU GUYS chat lovers and sg friends. KISSES
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and the latest news cast. look for the waves about 40 seconds in, flying over the seawall
SCHOOL JUST GOT CANCELED THROUGH MONDAY. I had three exams next week but with this I am hopeful that I get extra time. check it out---
READ MORE HERE!
I plan to be hiding at my mother's house in south Houston. I will have the web cam and camera the entire time.
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My birthday is October 1st, I will be 22. I can't believe 21 is already over, after waiting so many years, it didn't last long. I have decided what I want for my birthday, although I don't know of anyone who will really get me it. Let me dream...
you should go ahead and click this
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In other news I have been all worked up over a few pieces of art I've seen lately, thought I might share.
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first-- YOU NEED TO GOOGLE MISS VAN. good lord how I missed this woman this long is beyond me. She is a French graffiti artist who also paints for museums across the world.
miss van home site
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MOOGMAN-- I have know Moog since I was 12, he keeps stumbling back into my life at different events, usually initiated with me checking out the Lebanese guy with the TOOL t-shirt that ends up to be him.
MOOGMAN.NET
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eldone
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eyvind earle
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AUDREY KAWASAKI --- sexual candy made from paint. a genius with wood, and eyes that pierce.
A.K. GALLERY
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yes I considered putting all of that in spoilers, however with the sad state of our world's modern art community, I feel the need to force feed you. open wide.
I had intended to include some song lyrics I wanted to dissect. However, this blog is long enough with all the pictures, and the speed is wearing off so I just don't feel like it. Next time we discuss bands everyone else is wrong about
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REMEMBER KIDS:
Thank you, have a nice life.
READ MORE HERE!
I plan to be hiding at my mother's house in south Houston. I will have the web cam and camera the entire time.
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My birthday is October 1st, I will be 22. I can't believe 21 is already over, after waiting so many years, it didn't last long. I have decided what I want for my birthday, although I don't know of anyone who will really get me it. Let me dream...
you should go ahead and click this
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>><<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<
In other news I have been all worked up over a few pieces of art I've seen lately, thought I might share.
<<<>>>>>
first-- YOU NEED TO GOOGLE MISS VAN. good lord how I missed this woman this long is beyond me. She is a French graffiti artist who also paints for museums across the world.
miss van home site
<<<>>>>
MOOGMAN-- I have know Moog since I was 12, he keeps stumbling back into my life at different events, usually initiated with me checking out the Lebanese guy with the TOOL t-shirt that ends up to be him.
MOOGMAN.NET
<<<>>>>
eldone
<<<<>>>
eyvind earle
<<<<>>>>
AUDREY KAWASAKI --- sexual candy made from paint. a genius with wood, and eyes that pierce.
A.K. GALLERY
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>><<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<
yes I considered putting all of that in spoilers, however with the sad state of our world's modern art community, I feel the need to force feed you. open wide.
I had intended to include some song lyrics I wanted to dissect. However, this blog is long enough with all the pictures, and the speed is wearing off so I just don't feel like it. Next time we discuss bands everyone else is wrong about
. REMEMBER KIDS:
Thank you, have a nice life.
more cloud pictures. the storm missed us, and this is what we got instead of rain.
I finally have a photo of the painting I've been talking your ears off over.
This is most likely my greatest accomplishment thus far as an art student. In an attempt to legitimize my past LSD abuse, I had set a personal goal to figure out how to create the patterns we see everyday that only matter on acid, mushrooms, and any other psychedelics . After seeing art work by A. Grey or M.C. Escher, it was apparent that it was about pattern, while holding onto the organic flow of the piece. I will spare you the details of what I did to achieve this effect, but the light blue dots behind the painting are magical.
I have tested the painting, it is amazing. I am sure this reads as babble to most of you. However for the chance that there is another drug abusing artist reading this---ITS POSSIBLE.
In other news, I have been cleaning my house. Metal music and windex, what a Saturday.
This is most likely my greatest accomplishment thus far as an art student. In an attempt to legitimize my past LSD abuse, I had set a personal goal to figure out how to create the patterns we see everyday that only matter on acid, mushrooms, and any other psychedelics . After seeing art work by A. Grey or M.C. Escher, it was apparent that it was about pattern, while holding onto the organic flow of the piece. I will spare you the details of what I did to achieve this effect, but the light blue dots behind the painting are magical.
I have tested the painting, it is amazing. I am sure this reads as babble to most of you. However for the chance that there is another drug abusing artist reading this---ITS POSSIBLE.
In other news, I have been cleaning my house. Metal music and windex, what a Saturday.
School is back in full force. I am taking a heavy course load, but I am really excited about some of the classes. I will be building my portfolio this semester, taking ceramics, geology, government and speech. Oh and the next evil math class.
Geology is by far the most exciting thing I get to do this semester. I haven't forgotten a thing from physical geology, so no worries in historical. The best part is, in historical we get to study bones! If we got to snack on brains at the same time I would be in heaven.
My car decided to stop loving me early Sunday night before classes started. How sweet, right? So I spent the first half of the week staying at my mother's so I would have a ride to classes. I stayed up every night, because that house never sleeps. Of course if I had 15 people in me at all times, I most likely wouldn't sleep either.
I spent most of my time there as I always have, sitting outside enjoying the view. I missed the skies in Texas.
The sun rise on Monday was amazing, the first day we had in 7 days without rain. You can see the fog from all the moisture.
A cloud that looked like lips, I had been showing off in chat that morning.
To say the least I spent the rest of the week running around for school. Any spare time I've had I spent in my head. I am trying to understand so much right now. What I have been doing wrong the last 4 years, what I have done right ever.I keep finding myself attempting to plan for the future and sinking into mud instead of getting anywhere.
Beyond my computer, I have my sisters and mother here. I also have Athena, my source of hope when it comes to carrying on a relationship with a human being. Without them or school, I would be beyond anywhere you could find me. I am ready to be close to good people again, however the anxiety is growing in my gut and I am truly full of fear. Fortunately, I have found deep comfort in some of the relationships I have built through technology. However, there is no worse torture when lonely than talking to the people you want by your side while knowing you wont see them for months.
I have been away so much lately that my house has imploded. In an attempt to force myself to clean, here are shameful pictures of my clutter. This is my personal still-life and there are areas I have found very interesting. By posting these images I am challenging myself to clean finally. One day to clean everything. It has to be done.
Geology is by far the most exciting thing I get to do this semester. I haven't forgotten a thing from physical geology, so no worries in historical. The best part is, in historical we get to study bones! If we got to snack on brains at the same time I would be in heaven.
My car decided to stop loving me early Sunday night before classes started. How sweet, right? So I spent the first half of the week staying at my mother's so I would have a ride to classes. I stayed up every night, because that house never sleeps. Of course if I had 15 people in me at all times, I most likely wouldn't sleep either.
I spent most of my time there as I always have, sitting outside enjoying the view. I missed the skies in Texas.
The sun rise on Monday was amazing, the first day we had in 7 days without rain. You can see the fog from all the moisture.
A cloud that looked like lips, I had been showing off in chat that morning.
To say the least I spent the rest of the week running around for school. Any spare time I've had I spent in my head. I am trying to understand so much right now. What I have been doing wrong the last 4 years, what I have done right ever.I keep finding myself attempting to plan for the future and sinking into mud instead of getting anywhere.
Beyond my computer, I have my sisters and mother here. I also have Athena, my source of hope when it comes to carrying on a relationship with a human being. Without them or school, I would be beyond anywhere you could find me. I am ready to be close to good people again, however the anxiety is growing in my gut and I am truly full of fear. Fortunately, I have found deep comfort in some of the relationships I have built through technology. However, there is no worse torture when lonely than talking to the people you want by your side while knowing you wont see them for months.
I have been away so much lately that my house has imploded. In an attempt to force myself to clean, here are shameful pictures of my clutter. This is my personal still-life and there are areas I have found very interesting. By posting these images I am challenging myself to clean finally. One day to clean everything. It has to be done.
Finally, I have finally completed one full box of dead lighters for my art project! W00T! 
Remember kids---save your dead lighters and mail them to Lay SUPPORT THE ARTS, COLLECT YOUR FARTS! I plan to count these soon to see just how many I have right now. Thanks to everyone (cough KARMA cough) who has helped the cause!
Enjoy some more cloud pictures, I know you haven't had enough yet.
Fin...
Well I sit here at 3 am in New Jersey, and my brain pain is kicking my ass. Ive been north since last Friday, and I have been having an amazing time........however, I feel like shit. My stomach is stabbing me in the back and I can't do anything to help it. i haven't smoked for the most part since a I got here, which would be fine except I really cant hold food down without smoking. I have a stomach problem that makes me pretty sick every time I eat, and that is the only way I have found to deal with it. ANYWAYS instead of bitching or sitting here wishing for pot I don't have, I've decided to update ze blog.
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I got to spend the whole day with my boy and miss Mercie when I landed in Philly. We met up with Killary for lunch at Mercie's favorite restaurant in Baltimore. Shortly after that we went to buy 2 cases of Nitro and had a ballon party at Kill's house. I think both boxes were gone within 30 minutes.
That same night I got the pleasure of attending Karma's SG party in Philly. All my favorite chatters were there, and we had a blast! Those photos are in their own album, but here are some of my favorites.
KARMA MOTORBOATED MY BUTT!!!! zomg -dies-
:p
After the party, we all managed to get lost in west Philly (the ghetto) from 1 am to 3 am looking for a Denny's that I am now sure must have not been there. finally we gave up and took Mercie, Faefae, and KittieKATE back to their hotel, where Mercie and Larry passed out while kate fae and I smoked a few bowls in chat. you know your addicted to chat when there are three laptops set up on the same bed...
YAY FOR THE BITCHES. that night was full of win!
I am enjoying seeing everyone in Law's life, meeting all his friends and seeing how he lives. I am staying with him and his family, and they have been so nice, I think I might just move in. Yesterday Karma picked me up and we went to Atlantic City! We visited Ripley's believe it or not --
and got attacked by a mass of seagulls when we dropped fries on the boardwalk! 
ARGG!!
We also broke my strip club cherry, even though we had to ask about 30 people where the naked girls were before we found one, who knew they would hide the strip clubs in A.C. GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS? oh ya girls girls girls...
More like GIRL, apparently 4pm on Monday afternoon isn't the cream of the crop at those places, who knew?! We spent 20 bucks on weak drinks and a whole two dollars combined on this high stripper who couldn't even use the pole and didn't show us any boobs! None-the-less, we had a blast! Karma even smoked me out which saved me for a few hours, I <3 her.
Next on the list will be the Alex Grey museum & New York City on Thursday or Friday and strip club night with the girls on Friday night in Philly. Many pictures to come!!
Someone call the pot fairy and tell her I am in south Jersey! thanks....FEED MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
*************LOOOADS OF PICTURES*************************
I got to spend the whole day with my boy and miss Mercie when I landed in Philly. We met up with Killary for lunch at Mercie's favorite restaurant in Baltimore. Shortly after that we went to buy 2 cases of Nitro and had a ballon party at Kill's house. I think both boxes were gone within 30 minutes.
That same night I got the pleasure of attending Karma's SG party in Philly. All my favorite chatters were there, and we had a blast! Those photos are in their own album, but here are some of my favorites.
KARMA MOTORBOATED MY BUTT!!!! zomg -dies-
:pAfter the party, we all managed to get lost in west Philly (the ghetto) from 1 am to 3 am looking for a Denny's that I am now sure must have not been there. finally we gave up and took Mercie, Faefae, and KittieKATE back to their hotel, where Mercie and Larry passed out while kate fae and I smoked a few bowls in chat. you know your addicted to chat when there are three laptops set up on the same bed...
YAY FOR THE BITCHES. that night was full of win!
I am enjoying seeing everyone in Law's life, meeting all his friends and seeing how he lives. I am staying with him and his family, and they have been so nice, I think I might just move in. Yesterday Karma picked me up and we went to Atlantic City! We visited Ripley's believe it or not --
and got attacked by a mass of seagulls when we dropped fries on the boardwalk! ARGG!!
We also broke my strip club cherry, even though we had to ask about 30 people where the naked girls were before we found one, who knew they would hide the strip clubs in A.C. GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS? oh ya girls girls girls...
More like GIRL, apparently 4pm on Monday afternoon isn't the cream of the crop at those places, who knew?! We spent 20 bucks on weak drinks and a whole two dollars combined on this high stripper who couldn't even use the pole and didn't show us any boobs! None-the-less, we had a blast! Karma even smoked me out which saved me for a few hours, I <3 her.
Next on the list will be the Alex Grey museum & New York City on Thursday or Friday and strip club night with the girls on Friday night in Philly. Many pictures to come!!
Someone call the pot fairy and tell her I am in south Jersey! thanks....FEED MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
Planning this road trip to go from Jersey to Iowa for CHATTERS camping is getting stressful, but it is coming together. Actually planning the whole trip north is a small headache.
We plan to visit Philly one day, most likely the day Law picks me up from the airport there. Gotta see my Karma llarma!
We are also planning to take the train to New York city the weekend of the 8th. I'm working on plans to go to the Alex Grey Chapel of Sacred Mirrors, a life goal I've had for many years. In addition to the museums, we might get to meet up many lovely chatters that live there if time permits.
At midnight it will be 10 days until LAYLAW reunites and the world feels the hulk smash of the century!
I am swiftly approaching my deadline for the next competition at TAACCL. It is a juried exhibition, but lucky me! The juror is the head of my art department at my school, as well as the professor who gave me a scholarship in painting. So FINGERS CROSSED, I could win money that I desperately need. Up to $600 I think for first place.
We plan to visit Philly one day, most likely the day Law picks me up from the airport there. Gotta see my Karma llarma!
We are also planning to take the train to New York city the weekend of the 8th. I'm working on plans to go to the Alex Grey Chapel of Sacred Mirrors, a life goal I've had for many years. In addition to the museums, we might get to meet up many lovely chatters that live there if time permits.
At midnight it will be 10 days until LAYLAW reunites and the world feels the hulk smash of the century!
I am swiftly approaching my deadline for the next competition at TAACCL. It is a juried exhibition, but lucky me! The juror is the head of my art department at my school, as well as the professor who gave me a scholarship in painting. So FINGERS CROSSED, I could win money that I desperately need. Up to $600 I think for first place.
OCTOBER 2008