It's time for a change. It's a new year, and time to start fresh. I'm so excited!
I'm changing everything. I'm growing my hair back out, I'm re-painting my room, getting rid of all kinds of stuff, and I'm never talking to Rob again. He had his chance(s), and fucked up every one. Now it's my turn to get what I want. And dammit, I'm moving forward and never looking back!


I wish I could go back to this day, and I could fix everything.

Well today was my last day of working at OfficeMax. I will actually miss it, a little. I mean, I've been there for over two years. I have grown an attatchment. Especially to the people I work with. Most of all with Brian. No one will every know me or treat me the way Brian does. This is why he will always remain one of my dearest and best friends. I'll still see him though.
The good news is, they would more than likely take me back if I asked. Hopefully I can go to school full-time and not need to work. I need my bachelor's degree so bad. I just want to get it, and then I'm done. I have such a long way to go. Rob expects me to be caught up to him by the time he returns from deployment. It almost seems impossible. O_o But I think I can handle it. I have to try. I want to make my baby proud, and just finish school and become a home-maker, and eventually stay-home mom. That's all I really want. Just to build a family.
Damn, I miss him so much right now. I can't wait till finals are over, then I can spend all the time I want with him.

Here's a few pictures from when it snowed a week or so ago.


My little sister.








It was so frigging cold...

Well.... first blog. Of course it's on a night when I have nothing better to do. Well I do, actually, but I can't concentrate on doing any of it.
I miss Rob too much. He's apparently at a friend's funeral. That must be hard. Can't wait till he gets back though, so I can give him all the gifts I've collected for him, and cheer him up. :3

I haven’t really talked to him since Thursday. Feels like forever. How the hell am I going to cope with him being gone for a year?? I love the Navy, and I hate it.

I want Tuesday to come so I can see him, and cuddle with him for as long as I can.

I love my baby.