Once more I have reappeared here! I know how much everyone has been missing me and fuckin' hell do I have some shit to bring you up to speed on. Okay I left Richard, we know this....well upon leaving him I quit both my jobs, started attending community college full time, and ended up having to move back in with my mom. I've been unemployeed for over seven months and I could care less because I have free room and board as long as I keep good grades in college. College is a blast! I have become very well known here very quickly by both my peers and even senior staff members. I am persuing a major in Business Management and Entrepreneurship but in reguards to my marks in school well, I am excelling more in English than I am in Business class. My English professor insists that I attempt to publish my work because he says, "You are a gifted, brilliant writer, capable of bringing your audience inside your mind effortlessly. You need to work on getting published!". Now I do appreciate his faith in my ability, but I've been writing short stories, poems, and rants since I was old enough to understand the mechanics of putting pencil to paper, it's natural...too easy in fact that I couldn't do it for a living because it isn't really work. I want to own and operate my own bar/music venue by 2012 and as a single mother I qualify for business grants (money I won't ever have to pay back) and the government will help this single mother start her family legacy, The Toxic Cafe. It's my life's ambition to own a bar and I am going to school to do just that. Now it is not required that I get a degree of any kind to begin the process of opening my bar, but I thought it would be best to play it safe because I sure as shit don't want to end up bankrupt over some stupid error on my part, so I am preparing myself with knowledge of what to expect when considering starting your own business. Also I think when I apply for those...

Once more I have reappeared here! I know how much everyone has been missing me and fuckin' hell do I have some shit to bring you up to speed on. Okay I left Richard, we know this....well upon leaving him I quit both my jobs, started attending community college full time, and ended up having to move back in with my mom. I've been unemployeed for over seven months and I could care less because I have free room and board as long as I keep good grades in college. College is a blast! I have become very well known here very quickly by both my peers and even senior staff members. I am persuing a major in Business Management and Entrepreneurship but in reguards to my marks in school well, I am excelling more in English than I am in Business class. My English professor insists that I attempt to publish my work because he says, "You are a gifted, brilliant writer, capable of bringing your audience inside your mind effortlessly. You need to work on getting published!". Now I do appreciate his faith in my ability, but I've been writing short stories, poems, and rants since I was old enough to understand the mechanics of putting pencil to paper, it's natural...too easy in fact that I couldn't do it for a living because it isn't really work. I want to own and operate my own bar/music venue by 2012 and as a single mother I qualify for business grants (money I won't ever have to pay back) and the government will help this single mother start her family legacy, The Toxic Cafe. It's my life's ambition to own a bar and I am going to school to do just that. Now it is not required that I get a degree of any kind to begin the process of opening my bar, but I thought it would be best to play it safe because I sure as shit don't want to end up bankrupt over some stupid error on my part, so I am preparing myself with knowledge of what to expect when considering starting your own business. Also I think when I apply for those government grants they would like to see letters of recognition and certificates of achievements attained during my time at LMC to give them reassurance that I am not just a wlefare mom looking for a hand out. So aside from school I have joined a grunge rock band that covers mainly 90's alternative songs at the moment. I have written six originals so far but we only have three of them down well enough to play live. We are called ENVAIN and we formed in November 2008. I'm lead vocals and I love being back in the spot light again after so long. We cover songs like, "Celebrity Skin" by Hole and "Zombie" by the Cranberries as well as some Weezer and even on the opposite spectrum Sublime- "Bad Fish". I am looking to get away from that cover band persona, I'd like to expand more on originals and get beyond covers because no one comes to a live show and pay to hear a band play songs someone else wrote. I like originality and repitition bores me so soon enough I will get the rest of the band weened off of covers. We have played 3 live shows so far, each one the crowd was a little bigger than the last time, and we are playing at CZARS 505 music venue in downtown Saint Joseph Michigan on April 10th! You have to understand that CZARS is a big deal to any new band playing out. Typically in order to even get a show booked there your band has to have a demo/video or a serious buzz by word of mouth traveling to the Czars managers' ears otherwise he won't book you. Well we got CZARS for our 4th gig ever! No demo, no video, and still got enough people talking about us that we were able to convince Tom to let us come play his bar. That's the shit! Anyway, modeling has been on the back burner for a bit, I am aching to do a photo shoot, but no one will do the photos for me pro bono and I am a broke biatch right now. I don't have any camera equipment of any kind so I can't even take them myself. I have been thinking about doing one of two things with my tax return when it comes. Either A) Take $800 or so and take a trip to Los Angeles CA where I would walk up to SG headquarters and say to the sexy girl running the front desk, "Hi! My name is Crystal and I came all the way here from Michigan to become Miss Zeriah Suicide.....how can we make that happen?" or option B) Buy my own digital equipment and try to take the pics myself and saving the rest for emergencies to get me by until I find a job. I don't like option B as much because if I followed option A I could quite possibly win them over at SG and do an introductory photoshoot there at the HQ which would possibly be a source of income....but if I went there I don't know if I would want to go back to crappy Michigan. I just know that I belong among the Suicide Girls. I connect with them in chat and through other means of communication so well and the sisterhood would be so devine! I love these smart, strong, sexy, independent girls and I know I would be a great addition to the long line of SG's. Anyway, so that's the news...pretty much all of it I think. I got my license re-enstated so I can legally drive a car again.....now I just have to find a way to make my car street legal. Well until next time this is Zeriah....over and out!