age: 76 (Sep 05, 1935)
MEMBER SINCE: June 2004
occupation: Agent provocateur
i lost my virginity: ...and I can't seem to find it. Have you seen it?
sign: Virgo Monkey Uncle
makes me sad: Bigots and zealots (pretty much the same thing I guess)
body mods: Tats chest & left arm
into: everything, all the time
fantasy: that all my stupid mistakes never happened, or maybe I travel back in time and fix them. Wait--that opens a whole HUGE can of worms. Nevermind. Scratch that.
most humbling moment: Sitting on the toilet with my head in the sink then curling up in a ball on the floor and begging for death after eating meat for the first time in many moons, then going to emergency care and getting laughed at by the doctor.
stats: was the most painfully boring class I was ever forced to take.
crush: crush this.
makes me happy: Life
Not so long ago I could just sit down and write and let whatever flow out onto this page, but I just feel so , how to say it... STUCK. I know I should write just to break the seal on the cling-wrap that is holding everything in but it just seems so tight and too difficult to tear through. I will give it more effort, but I am afraid that miscellaneous ramblings about not being able to write or think or know what the fuck is going on with myself is all you will get for a while. What a bunch of whiney crap this is. That is what is up with me these days though. I have no clue what it is all about either. I even started smoking again (just a little). What the fuck is *THAT* about? How did I get to be suddenly unhappy? I am one twisted fuck.
EDITED TO ADD:
I went to Cattra's page and saw that she might be leaving. That royally sux. Her journal gave me the idea of adding myself as my own friend... maybe that's what I need: be my own friend. I haven't been very friendly to myself lately. Ugh.
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