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JANUARY 3, 2012 @ 02:28 PM | 38 COMMENTS


Hello my internet boyfriends and girlfriends

didja miss me?
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didja miss theeese? wink
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Thank God for bewbs.

Time for an update.
It's a long one, so sit back...

About 2 months ago I had a seizure out of the blue. I suffered a severe concussion, with a black eye and busted lip to boot, from when my face decided to fight my hardwood floor.

I was taken to the hospital and after 2 looong days in ER and 3 morphine drips (little of either I remember) I was finally given a room.

Here is a great shot of the shiner I got from smashing my face into the floor.
I'm not winking, this was just how swollen I was...
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That's my buddy Scotty in the background, being awesome.

On day 3 I had another seizure. They did a series of tests, (CT/CAT scans, iodized ink injections, MRIs, ect, ect, ect) and found scar tissue on my right medesial front lobe, which both the neurologist I saw at the hospital and the neuro surgeon I got a second opinion from both said would be probable cause for the seizures.
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On the right in the yellow circle (which is actually the left part of my brain) you can see a well defined fold in the tissue with clear black outlining.
On the left in the red circle you can see it is much less defined, with more white puffiness. This is the scar tissue, which the neurologists believe is from fever-induced seizures I had as an infant. With cases like these, the seizures generally start occurring in your 20s and without medication will continue, which classifies me as epileptic.

They put me on an anti-seizure medication called dilanten, and on the 4th day I had another seizure, which lasted 5 minutes.
Most seizures generally last 1.5-2 minutes, and anything past 5 runs risk of potential brain damage. Luckily this was my only sezure longer than 3 minutes.

After 3 days on Dilanten they discharged me from the hospital. I had another seizure the following 2 days, and on my third day out of hospital I had the most painful headache I've ever experienced, that felt like my brain was swelling into my skull, and a high fever that kept rising. My mom FINALLY dragged my ass off the couch when it got to 102 degrees to take me to the hospital, and I had another seizure literally in the doorway.

My mom called an ambulance and I was rushed to emerge. When I got there they did blood work and found that the amount of Dilanten in my body had built to toxic levels, and I had basically involunerily overdosed on the drug. I was told that regular theraputic levels of dilanten when treating seizures are between 30-40, and the dilanten in my body had built up to 176.

For the next 2 days I was closely monitored as I detoxed off the Dilanten and finally started to feel better.
I was given a room on the third day and started another sting of tests, with bloodwork every 4 hours to check my dilanten levels (my veins were so collapsed by the end of my stay, I was a giant bruise.)

Thennn... I woke up on my 4th day in hospital number 2 with a horrible, burning, itchy rash over my ENTIRE body, from my neck to the tops of my feet. I literally looked like I had red scales tattooed on my entire body. My face was red and swollen to double it's size and my tongue was heavy. I called the nurses and they got the doctor to see me immediately.

I was told this looked like a delayed further allergic reaction to the dilanten, which lays dorment in the body until a week or more after the first dosage. The most horrible part of this was that my symptoms looked a lot like I may have developed something called Steven Johnson's Syndrome, where basically your skin develops a rash that blisters like 3rd degree burns and comes off in sheets. This enevitably leads to infection, which spreads due to the volume of open wounds, and is very life-threatening.


With this they wanted to rule out the seizures and illness being infection-induced, so I was again given another onslaught of tests, including a spinal tap, or "lumbar puncture". (Honestly; no where near as scary as everyone makes it out to be; my tattoo there hurt infinately more than the tap, and it was over in a matter of minutes)

They put me on a super-heavy dose of steroids to combat the reaction, and the next morning the rash was significantly better.

Following night I had another seizure , and was put on a different, less invasive epilepsy medication the next day.

SO. After my rash went away, they ruled out life-threatening infection and I went 72 hours without a seizure I was finally released a second time from the hospital. (Which, by the way, did NOT have much in the ways of vegan options, FYI lol)

Since my final discharge I have had 2 small, what they call "breakthrough seizures" (seizuring while medicated), while I work with my neurologist to get my new medication at the levels I need. I lost partial sight in my left eye after the first seizure, but am happy to say after my last optomitrist appointment, I have fully regained.

Unfortunately when you have a seizure, or are diagnosed with epilepsy your lisence is suspended. In my province it is 6 months minumum, from your last seizure, so I have had my lisence suspended. Living downtown in a big city wouldn't make this such a huge deal, except that my career depended on me driving across Southern Ontario to run all my Jager events.
So with no lisence, and suddenly becoming an insurance risk I was let go from my job. My job that I fucking loved and was so happy to have. I had something that was fun and exciting and challenging and fufilling and I've lost it, along with a lot of my independance, not being able to drive. This was definitely the hardest pill to swallow.

As of right now, I am not sure what the future hold for me, but 2012 has GOT to be better.
I am currently looking for a roomate (as being unemployed and paying for a 2-bedroom downtown can only last so long before my savings runs out). I am not sure what I am able to do in the ways of jobs yet, as I am still adjusting to medications, going to numerous appointments and generally trying to get better, but I am looking into registering for unemployment insurance, until I catch my bearings.

It's been a tough year, but I'm still standing. I have high hopes for 2012, as I get healthier and I am so excited to become an auntie in March smile

Anywho, that was the last 2 months or so for me. I hope all of yours were a little better!

Happy new year everyone <3

love love love
nymph
xoxoxo

ps:
my 2012 "Get Better" wishlist
NOVEMBER 3, 2011 @ 04:03 PM | 15 COMMENTS


Good evening all my internet boyfriends and girlfriends

After 2 straight months of Jagermeister events all over Southern Ontario from 'Back to School' to our biggest events of the year; Halloween, packed full of scheduling Jagerettes, booking hotels, ordering bottles, driving (sooo much driiiviiing...), paperwork, paperwork, paperwork and tons of parties at bars across the province I am FINALLY taking a weekend off.

I was supposed to have a housewarming/belated birthday party tomorrow night (I worked on my birthday last Saturday for the 4th year in a row doing Jager events) but I'm sick with a bad cold so I had to cancel frown I had bronchitis and an ear infection just a few weeks ago and I think with all the stress and lack of sleep from working so much these last two months I never really gave my body a chance to get healthy, so I am sick AGAIN.

Anywho, I am now lounging in bed with the kitties, watching FRIENDS and It's Always Sunny in Philidelphia (which I just recently discovered and btw fucking RULES) and taking intermitten naps, for the second day in a row. Despite the congestion, the caughing, the sore throat and ears and just general leaking from the face it feels really good to just REST.

Anywho, that's what's up with me, so I just thought I'd say a little hello to my SG lovers.

And now for some pictures...

My love Archie and I after working 2 days of Jager promo at the Saugeen Summer Nights festival in Ayton, Ontario
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Here we are again with our friend Sabrina at Heavy TO, which Archie's man Matt played with Baptized in Blood. Our shifts ended just in time to see Rob Zombie!!!
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We had band signings in "Jager World" at Heavy TO, which happened to be directly beside where I was running the Jagerettes out of, so I got to hang out beside the legendary Mr. Kerry King from Slayer. (I was pretty stoked)
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New kittie!!! This is Sgt. Pepper. I adopted him from my cousin Sam. Sam just graduated from Ottawa University (which is in Eastern Ontario, for those of you non-Canucks) and her and her boyfriend drove across Canada to move out to Banff, Alberta. They couldn't take the cat with them in a car across the county, so I took in the little guy smile
He's only 1 and he's a little shit-disturber, but I love the little monster.
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Old kittle. She hasn't left my side the last two days; I think she knows I'm sick. I love this little lady so fucking much.
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The two of them get into little tiffs a lot, (mainly because Sgt. Pepper is a bratty little instigater) so I got them little bandana collars in red and dark blue. Now when they fight it's like an adorable little gang war!
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The may wrastle every now and then, but waterbed naptime takes presidence over any differences. (I totally walked in on them cleaning each other the other day...they secretly love each other. Like brother and sister. It's adorable.)

Anywho, that's what's up in the world of nymph. Hope you all are doing well.

Love love love
nymph
xoxoxo
OCTOBER 25, 2011 @ 07:17 PM | 14 COMMENTS


hey there internet boyfriends and girlfriends.
long time no talk...

A lot of changes happened in my life this summer...
The person I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with broke my heart,
I was physically hurt by someone I loved for the first time in my life, and it shook my world.
I moved into my very own 2 bedroom appartment,
I adopted a new feline friend,
I met someone who has become a very important person in my life and one of my best friends,
I fell back in love with the music of the 70s,
I drove across Canada to escape and reaffirm my absolute love and passion for this beautiful country,
I did some personal reflection on my drug use and abuse
I recently met someone new and am embarking on the begining of a new relationship,
I had my first SG set in a year and a half go live!!! Thank you so so SO much to everyone who gave it love!!!
I rediscovered the power of friends and the power of dance.


Speaking of friends... one of my very good {and outrageously beautiful} ones has a new set in review!!!
Please go give some love to Atlea's Ode to Pan, shot by the talented Dwam.

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I think this is my most favorite set by her to date; she looks just stunning in it and it's shot beautifully. It has honestly been FAR too long since this beautiful face {and SWEET ASS} have seen front page, so please go give this incredible girl some love on her latest set!!!

Okay, that's all for now in the world of Nymph.
Love you guys
xoxoxo
nymph

Oh! oh! oh!!! I forgot one super duper incredible thing to mention!!!
I'm gunna be an auntie!!!
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My sister Danielle and her husband Adam are expecting their first in March!!! I am BEYOND excited!!!
JULY 4, 2011 @ 02:56 PM | 28 COMMENTS


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it's just too hot for anything...


...including clothes.

What do you do to keep cool?

-nymph xo


ps: happy 4th of July to all my internet boyfriends and girlfriends south of the boarder. wink
JUNE 30, 2011 @ 05:01 AM | 19 COMMENTS


ALLERGIES ARE MELTING MY FACE AND EATING MY SOOOUL!!!

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There is construction going on below my appartment because they are converting the recently leased retail space below me into a restaurant. Sooo... not only do I have to deal with the ever-so-pleasent buzzes, whirrrs, bangs and other vairous Batman sounds that come with commercial renovation, but on top of that there has been this lovely constant dusty haze of sawdust other dirt-like particals flowing through the vents and into my home.

Aaannnd my cat Spazzy is getting her summer coat and shedding like a maniac. You'd swear we have a goddamn giant husky as opposed to an 8 pound short-haired kitty. I clean CONSTANTLY (and obsessively thuroughly) literally every day, and yet somehow despite the lint rolling, sweeping, mopping, vaccuming and constant kitty-brushing there are still all these little kitty hair tumbleweeds drifting through my SMALL appartment. WILL IT NEVER END?!?!?!?!?!
Even Spazzy is sneezing a ton lately! ...maybe she's allergic to herself...

But who can be mad at this ball of absolute fucking adorableness???
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...I know, right? tongue

In other news...
Have you heard?!
I have a new set in review! (yaaay!)
Wednesday's Child shot by the ever-so-fucking-awesome Shazzy is in MR! This is my FOURTEENTH Suicide Girls set I've shot since my humble beginnnings back in 2008, and coincidentally is has been fourteen months since I last had a set go live (Happy Hour Shower, if you wanna take a gander!wink)
It's been over a year since I've seen front page and I would be so greatful and happy to see it again this summer smile So please go check it out, leave some love, and help me see front page again!!!

Here's a taste of what you're in for!
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Thanks so much my internet boyfriends and girlsfriends! Wish me luck!!!

love love love,
nymph
xoxoxo
JUNE 11, 2011 @ 10:55 AM | 24 COMMENTS


Alrighty boyfriends and girlfriends, here it is; my long long LOOONG overdue bloggery update!

First off I have made a discovery about myself; I straight up suck at keeping up with blogs.
True story.
...but you knew that.

Anywho, a lot has been up in the last few months... been working a lot, making new firends, gettin' my picture taken and hangin' out nekkid, and a bunch of general tom-foolery and douche-baggery.

Ginty is on tour right now (as always), currently making his way across North America with his band The Creepshow. He's been gone about 3.5 weeks now and will be home next Monday. Then he'll be home for another 3.5 and off to Europe for another month. It's been a looong haul and we are both very much looking forward to some time off after August. I miss my Ginty blush

I've been working a lot with Jagermeister, also as per usual. TONS of stuff coming up this summer including the North By NorthEast BBQ, Tragically Hip on Canada Day and plenty of trips around the province!

Aside from Jager I've also been modeling some. Not as much lately as usual, as I've been in a bit of a rut and generally pretty lethargic, but I've done a couple shows the last few months, including 2 IMAGOzine shows (one at Toronto's alternative fashion week, aka FAT, and a Lady Lucie/Jane Doe show at Torture Garden in Toronto.

Here's a taste!

IMAGOzine:
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Lady Lucy/Jane Doe @ Torture Garden:
I LOVED this outfit! It was 2 giant latex bows love

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This was my GIANT hair before they even put the synthetic in... this is all me baby! tongue
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This is a video of the whole fashion show:


And more modeling for your viewing pleasure...
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Pictures from the Subspace Dungeon by miss Teri Cat
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Myself and the stunning Dolores del Fuego at The Keyhole Sessions' X-LENS class
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Various photos from The Keyhole Sessions' "Girls on Film IV
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more pictures from Images in G
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This one obviously isn't modeling but it's pretty epic none the less... it's me and my friend Jen Robot-Dance-Fucking. Jealous?
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Speaking of Jen, you should all check out her band Unbelievers, cause they rock my box.
Oh look, a video! You should totally watch it wink


Okay, what else... what else...
Oh! Last weekend was SG Canada East's annual gala! The lovely miss Atlea stayed with me and I got to hang with her for 2 whole days! It was bliss love
Before gala at Rancho Relaxo I had a bit of a pre-party at my place with a bunch of people I had much needed catch-up time long overdue. I was so very happy to see Shaine, Archie and of course my lover Renna once again, I missed my SG lovelies! kiss (It was also awesome seeing Sphinx, but I see that gurl's fyyyne ass all the time wink)

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Here is a picture with me and my 3 dates Atlea, and my friends Chris and Jordon. The theme for the night was "Canadiana", so I was wearing a mountie costume tongue
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Gala was awesomesauce as always and I had a blastyblast smile

Okay, one last piece of LATE BREAKING NEWS for this bloggidy-blog.
Here it is...
Are you ready???
I have a new set coming out THIS SATURDAY, June 18th!!!
It is called Wednesday's Child and was shot by the ever so awesome Shazzy.
Be sure to comment on it, leave me some love and help me get my first set bought in over a year!

Here's a sneak preview:
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Okay SGland, there it is! My super duper update!
over and out *beep beep*
love you
nymph
xoxoxo
MARCH 21, 2011 @ 08:01 PM | 38 COMMENTS


ugh. nymph needs a new blog.
I've been busy. working. modeling. sick. in hospital.
I really need to update but I'm too drunk to do a good one right now.
I'm sorry SG, I suck lately frown
Here's a picture to tide you over til I find the time to blog.
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Love you all.
nymph xoxoxo
JANUARY 5, 2011 @ 10:59 PM | 29 COMMENTS


Hey there internet boyfriends and girlfriends

What's everyone's favorite band? I'm lookin for somethin new smile

Here are threee by mine ('cause the best things come in threees smile)







Don't forget to leave some love on my new set too empty without you in MR!

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love you guys
nymph
xoxoxo
DECEMBER 27, 2010 @ 01:26 AM | 23 COMMENTS


Happy dunken boxing day everyone!
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For those of you non-Canadians boxing day is what we call the day after Christmas. It's a day of delicious leftovers and rock-bottom retail prices! (Kinda like the American "black friday", but at a much less convenient time of year...)


I forgot to post these gems in my last blog...
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a little late, but happy holi-daze!!!


WHAT DID EVEYONE GET FOR CHRISTMAS THIS YEAR?!
My mommy got me an air-popper (since microwave popcorn isn't healthy OR vegan), a new winter coat and some much appreciated money for a trip to Montreal in the new year! My daddy got my mum and I tickets to see Bon Jovi together! He's not my most favorite musician in the world, but my mom really like him and I love girls nights with my mom!!!
Ginty got me the FULL SERIES of FRIENDS on dvd!!! It's 40 discs!!! 10 seasons!!! Friends is the only show I can watch 4 times a day and still find it hilariously entertaining. I'm so stoked to have all 10 seasons on dvd! Woo!


Anywho, I'm drunk and rambling so it's time to wrap this up.
Make sure to check out me new set in MR on the 29th!!!
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bewbs!!!


love you babies
nymph
xoxoxo
DECEMBER 16, 2010 @ 09:07 PM | 27 COMMENTS


hello my beautiful internet boyfriends and girlfriends

yet another quick and dirty update!!!

-First thing's first: I'm in my first magazine!!! AND it's with the beautiful Atlea!
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Shot by the ever-awesome tmronin!
This is from the January 2011 issue of Rebel Ink, shot at the Montreal Art show back in September smile
Aaand... there just happens to be some other lovely ladies mingling among the pages too! Luscious, Aisline, Lee, and my hero, the beautiful Twwly are all in there too! So go get one!!! Weee!!!

-Had the holiday wrap-up for TKS this month, and can't wait to get back into it in 2011!
Here are some of the pics from Girls on Film III, the other model is the delicious Dolores del Fuego:
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...and from the last drawing session of the season:
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models: left- Harlot Fever right- Jennifer Rose

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models: L-R The Madame, Harlot Fever, Jennifer Rose

-Been working so so SO much lately, between shooting and Jagermeister promos. The job is getting easier as I do it more and more, and thus less stressful so things are going well!
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...yeup.

-Ginty has been on tour (with the exception of 4 ridiculously short days) since the last week of September and it has been a long and hard 3 months without him. That said; he comes home in THREE DAYS and I am SO FREAKIN EXCITED I don't even know how to explain it!!!

When he left for tour we had just moved out of our previous place in Toronto and back into my parents' place for the month. I have since moved us in to his good friend Tracy's place and we are back downtown. He has only stayed here 4 nights; not nearly enough time for this to feel like "home" yet, so I am excited to have him back and really make this place feel like ours. smile

I am so thrilled to have him back in our bed and wake up next to him again... I've missed him so much, but with being away so long I've also gotten to realize just how much I really love him blush

Speaking of missing rockstars on tour... I decided to make this the theme of my next set, which I have titled "too empty without you" (talking about the empty bed I've been sleeping in alone the last 3 months...) It's qued to go into MR December 29th so be sure to check it out and leave me some love!

In the meantime; here's a little preview:
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shot by the talented Shazzykiss

-My sister came home last night from Grenada for the Christmas holidays and I went home for a quick visit tonight. It was wonderful seeing her for the first time since June when her and my brother-in-law moved there for his schooling. I took her to her first trip to Tim Horton's since getting back to Canada! (for those of you non-Canucks; Timmy-Ho's is a Canadian STAPLE, especially in the winter!)

-What's everyone's number one Christmas/holiday wish this year?! Other than having my sweetheart home, I'm hoping for an air-popper and some new vegan cookbooks! (plus, these lil' pressies would be nice too! wink)
How about you?!

-What is everyone doing for NYE this year? I don't have any plans yet, since Ginty isn't home to make them with me, but I do know that I want to PARTY. I have worked almost every weekend since I got promoted with Jagermeister back in August, and I am ready to let LOOSE!

Alrighty, well that's all for now my lovelies. Hope you all have a wonderful holiday season no matter what you celebrate, and may you all be blessed with love, laughter and liquor!!!

love love love
nymph
xoxoxo

ps: me and Spazzy! (ma hurr is gettin looonnnggg!!!)
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