Hey y’all!
It’s been a minute since I’ve posted a full blog, life has kept me slightly busy as I’m sure it has for everyone else in the world. But I’m beyond excited that I do have a new set coming out today. I love all of the sets I’ve ever done, but there are 2 sets in particular that are going to be the most important to me and hold the most meaning, they are both beautiful sets shot by ridiculously talented women. The 1st one that is going to be the most important to me is going to be the set that came out last year shot by @sunshine called “Angel Eyes” Sunshine got in contact with me in February of 2021 letting me know she’d be back in Columbus for a period of time and to see if I wanted to shoot a set since she knows I’m in Ohio, I was so excited and immediately said yes, but, what Sunnie or anyone else didn’t know, was this was an extremely tumultuous time in my life that I was trying to keep quiet. You see, the reason I fell off from this world and dancing for so many years was because I was in a relationship where I was being controlled and dealing with narcissistic abuse and never realized it until the end (that’s what happens when you’re manipulated for years) when I went to shoot with Sunnie, my confidence was so low, my self image was completely destroyed by this man, and on top of it all he is the one that drove me to the shoot, he wasn’t allowed to be there while I was shooting (THANK GOODNESS) but it was like I couldn’t escape him. Shooting that set was what I needed, it helped remind me of the person I was and missed, Sunnie made me feel confident the whole time (she has the most wonderful, kind, soul) and then I went home, a few days later I literally escaped that house I lived in with him and started my life over. So fast forward to May of this year, I went to Hell City and ran into @sobelle and we realized she’s never got to shoot me, so we said let’s do this! My confidence was in a completely different place and I was starting to feel like myself again, and I actually felt beautiful behind the camera this time, because I no longer had this dead weight of a cruel spirit attached to me, I ACTUALLY SMILE IN THIS SET, I hadn’t really smiled in a picture for years. The light and life in my eyes was back, instead of the sorrow that was behind them in my previous set. My spirit is no longer broken. So to @sunshine I am forever grateful for that set you shot, it’s beautiful and holds so much meaning and symbolism to me, I needed these images and it will forever be one of my most favorite sets that holds a special place for me. People don’t understand what happens when you are stuck in a cycle of abuse, but one thing that does happen is you often times lose yourself and feel as if you have no meaning, because that is what you have been conditioned to believe. I may never truly come forward and speak my whole truth out of fear, but, I’m grateful for finding my way out of misery. So enough of me typing about a sad situation, sorry y’all. Anyway, “Dreams in Digital” will be up soon and this is going to be my another set that is going to be special to me as well, because I can see in this one how much I grew in my healing journey and I am so proud of myself for the progress that I have made! Thanks again @sobelle for shooting this set, it beautiful and I’m excited for everyone to see it!
XO
Zombie
