Rehab was necessary. I needed to shake the spiders off and meet those broken people who i fell in love with a little bit. But now i have this fucking hole inside me the size of God and i am so afraid. I am afraid i am losing mind. No but i really mean it this time. Friday the 13th. I am flying away to florida. I still am perplexed that i am actually really for real going to do this thing. All by myself like a sane person. I bet i get lost in the airport. I will live the rest of my life stealing random medication from strange luggage and drinking airport coffee and being all weird.
clumzydragon:
I may not know you or know about your life where you been, what you done , and what you have seen but I do know that I to am afraid. I am afraid to lose my mind also, afraid that I well lose the friends that I have made this year the first friends I have ever had, and afraid that I well never change into the person I want to be. But I well never stop trying to be who I want to be need to be so I can get better and you shouldn't ether. Telling from what you wrote it looks like you to are trying to change something in your life to and you can do this <3 . Again I may not know you but I would like to and I would like to see you get better to not be controlled by something or someone. If you ever feel like you need to let something off your chest then I well listen and not judge you in tell you fine someone that can help you out better then I. Sorry for this being so long and for all the errors and if this was way out of line to you I am just doing what I would do for me if I was in your shoes.