zombette

a few days ago, i believe it was the 15th maybe, alissa brunelli met up with me in a best western and we commenced upon the Epic Photo Shoot. i was so excited, every step i took, every breath, every time i blinked i kept thinking 'Yes, i AM here, i really AM doing this and i didnt think it was possible.' a funny thing was, i liked her the minute i met her. you know what they say? they say if you dont like someone within three seconds of meeting them, you never will. that was not the case with alissa. i was in alissas company for a grand total of 5 minutes and i felt like id known her ten years.
it was so much fun. god help me, it was so much fun. she had brought a friend/assistant whose name i cannot recall, damn me, and as the shooting started, they adjusted my hair for me and directed me to pull my panties a little tighter and squeeze my cleavage and so on. i felt IMPORTANT, does that make sense? like one of the chosen ones and this was my test. evidently, i passed, because she emailed me the next day with exclamations of rapture at how amazing everything turned out. she mailed me the set so i could peek at it and i was fucking amazed. i really had no idea a professional with a plan could make so much difference. i hope it goes up soon and i really hope you like it as much as i do.
im not going to sit here and preach Oh no, im not vain, its the ARTISTIC aspect that i thrive on. fuck yes im vain. im one of the most narcissistic assholes youll ever meet.
but i hide that part behind a mask most of the time. thats one of the many bits i so loved about the shoot. i got to be as shallow and superficial as i wanted and nobody batted an eye.
i think im going to quit my job. it really is a shame because ive been there a year, but im just not making the money i need to even pay HALF the rent if i found a roommate. i wonder if i can model for other places. not in competition with SG, just a little freelance on the side for money.
i cant wait to do another shoot.
i can see an addiction forming here.