zombette

christ i dont want to go to work. why did i get up so early? this is ridiculous.
heres another ridiculous thing. nick no longer wants me to do this. i wonder how many sgs have had this difficulty. the significant other kicking up dickens.
one in three? all of them?
PERSONALLY, i think hes being a hypocrite. it was nick, after all, who introduced me to the suicidegirls in the first place, showing me the book while we were in LA, buying the dvd, saying how EMPOWERED they all were, how COOL.
and now hes folding his self-righteous arms and shaking his self-righteous head and saying nono, this is for ME to enjoy, not for YOU to be a part of, dear.
well. i see. i see very clearlly. i knew he was lying through his teeth in the beginning, of course, i didnt buy one iota of the empowered, modern feminist bullshit when he was spouting it, i knew he just liked looking at the lovely ladies... but i like the whole CONCEPT. and he isnt liking that.
this sucks. he was pretty supportive at first.
now i dont know what the hell to do. part of me wants to say Well, dearest darling, at least im not cheating on you... but then i know a huge argument would spin out of nothing; hed accuse me of throwing the meaningless past up at him again and beating him with it... and i just dont care anymore. i dont want to have any more fights. im just not up to it. im happy when hes happy.
what does that mean? i dont know.