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interesting weekend. spent Saturday wondering what Saturday night was going to be about, wasn't sure if it was just going to be closure or closure and openings, i guess it was both.
interesting how spending the evening exposing and expressing one's heart can lead to other forms of expression
and how on Sunday, the day is all about processing that, and flying down black lake...
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so really i need to be finishing up this bibliography that is due Monday. and what am i doing? looking at naked ladies, whacking off, buying stereo equipment (not all at the same time) and sipping vodka.
nice life, would be nicer if these fucking deadlines were not around, did i ever mention how i hate school? man i want it to be done

happy turkey everyone, especially those in the northern extremes

Beauty has compelled me to tears
Ugliness and fundamentalism are the same: blaming others for ones own problems, it bores me until it affects those I love
I am shy but people who first meet me would not say that as I tend to put up a front
When I have described my thinking process to those who know about this stuff I have been...
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so after 11 years of solid but slowly deteriorating performance the fucking turd finally gave up. Imagine a ford station wagon lasting that long. I am sad to see it go. amortized over its life with me it cost me $88 a month for the car plus I guess about $100 a month for all the other shit that goes with having a car. won't...
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so a cry in the dark? we're in counselling, or I am anyway. L has joined me for one session and has agreed to see the shrink on her own for a few times. its interesting to hear how messed up I am. Profoundly sad was the shrinks opinion, why? well we're working on that. L is rather surprised I am doing this. and in...
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so after 23 years of being together I have been informed by my wife that she wants out. I am too blue for her, bring her down too much. she has been thinking about this for about 2 years and initially told me that we need to seek outside help to see us through this but after she met with a counsellor who advised her...
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god its that time again. back to it for another 8 months. cant believe teh summer is past. did a pile of stuff I had to do but none that I wanted, no traveling, no putting the feet up just fucking work. sigh I guess. the real bad news is after 3 months there are still many unpacked boxes of stuff from the move and...
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So I guess in your late 40's one does go through a crisis of some sort, or better yet use that clich to explain one's behaviours. I was worderised (perhaps bawled out is a better term) by this women who thought I was a weird-o for being in university considering my age. Like how dare I. I couldn't care about what her opinion was. So...
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change is everything. we have moved, yes actually sold the big fucking too expensive house and moved back into a rental property I own. we were looking for another place but in the end decided to downsize big time (4000 sq ft. to 1200) but it is a question of paying a mortgage or not. no mortgage is nice, we actually used some of the...
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