zeriah

So it's been raining shit on me since my last rejection letter pretty much I haven't had a good day since September 7th. My birthday sucked, well accept for seeing Chris. A week later three servers quit on the spot where I work. I've been pulling 10 hour shifts and double shifts here and there, I'm exhausted and it shows. I'm sick and losing tons of weight with no vomiting or starvation, I don't work out so there really is no explaination in my massive weight loss, I'm down to 106lbs and probably even less now. I look sick and I feel terrible. I'm tired all the time. I went and got a bunch of blood tests done and still have heard nothing about the results, I could have a serious disease and knowing I "could" have it, but not knowing if I DO have it is driving me nuts. My computer fried two weeks ago because my jack ass boyfriend said the only good place to put the computer was under the air conditioner because that's where the best phone line is to get our DSL Cable installed so some condensation dripped into the computer and wham-o- smoke and stuff told me no more computer, we don't have the money to fix it, we didn't even have the money for the electric bill. The electricity was shut off today, but I scrounged up enough moneyby going to all my "friends" that I have loaned money to in the past and collected my dues. I got the electricity bill paid and turned back on by lunch this afternoon just in time to make my daughter some chicken nuggets and mac n cheese, had to have electricity to make that ya know. I fell asleep which means my daughter was unattended for some time and when I awoke I found her tearing up my friends lap top that I was allowed privelage to borrow because my computer is out of commission. The little brat pushed a chair over to the counter and started pulling every wire out of the back end. I had to disassemble my make shift office and move it into the bedroom where it will stay since she's so damn clever these days. I just hope she doesn't figure out to push a chair to the door and twist the door knob to get inside. She's screaming and kicking the door outside my room right now saying, "Mama, out!" which means she wants me to come out (which really means she wants me to open the door and as soon as I walk out she'll run in) So yes, that has been my world as of late and I'm not enjoying it much. On the upside I had a customer at work tell me I was a very pretty girl and I should get into modeling (go figure) and I was also offered a chance to be in a student horror film because I know how to do some bad ass bloody murder screams. I hope they don't want a chick with hooters because mine are almost gone now, blasted weight loss has taken my tits down to a 32 nearly A, I buy my clothes and my bras in the Junior Miss section of the department store and people think I'm 15 to 17. I don't know what I'm going to do, but losing my mind isn't working and my boyfriend isn't helping much either. I just thought I'd tell everyone how I've been ya know. Shitty shitty shitty, but other than that......Piss poor shittiness.
xoxo
Zeriah