I want to run out into the ocean and let the waves swallow me alive. Let them drown out all my pain and brokeness and throw me back ashore where I will be healed. Where I will no longer be destructive. I want to climb to the top of the mountains and breathe in as deeply as possible and let the wind sweep my burdens off my shoulders. I am at a war with myself. I want to lay in the middle of the soft white snow and let my pain melt away with it. I want the sun to shine on my face and light up everything that I like about myself, so I'm no longer fighting inside. I want to love myself as deeply as I love others. I want to find peace within my broken soul. I want to mend all the shattered parts that have made me who I am. I want to be better and I want you to know that I am the only one who is my enemy. I am my villain and the only person who can save me...is me.
