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Sympathy is nice... thanks for the wow Shelby, means a lot to me. Today work sucked, like usual, Im still waiting for things to look up... I miss you all the time Shelby... I miss you like I've held you in my arms and you've suddenly left me. Smell your letters like a stalker and then fall esleep listening to music I know we'll one day enjoy together, like the pouges or the swingin' utters and a lot of DK and Johnny Cash, his thick deep voice reminds me of yours. How it soothes me... I drown in my thoughts of you while I attempt the deep rhythmic humming of his skillful voice... My friend Jay made me upset today. Real Upset. I was hangin out at his place, like I so often do when for no reason he throws a fit because Im there too often... so I leave, but ask if I can borrow the Stewie Movie we rented hoping to watch together and he says "I want to, but it's against my better judgment" What the Fuck does that mean??? basically he doesnt trust me. Just hurts, because all bad things I may be, untrustworthy is not one of them... I treat my friends too good even... just trivial things though... when I think about DEB and poor Johnny Kennedy, my hero... he's my insporation, when I think my small little life sucks, I think of living with a condition where my skin falls off for no reason without enough time to regenerate before it starts to fall off again, making sex and even masterbation impossible... then I think Im a selfish whore and I should shut up...