Sitting this one out after all...

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Yesterday i spoke about my mental health and said I will try my best to go on stream for when my new set comes out

Unfortunately with how I have been feeling all day, all the panic attacks and self destructive behaviour as well as low moods, I think I will sit this one out.

Ive never not been active here around the time my...
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autumn:
Sending love. And do you! No need to apologize for taking care of yourself!
robertbluesman:
I feel ya. Some days I want the sun to just turn around and go back down into night. But each day we get a new opportunity to appreciate something, even the tiniest of somethings. Build upon that, one little positive foundational building block at a time. You’ll be soaring with eagles soon enough! 😎

Updates

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I have been absent recently due to my mental health

Its been constantly up and down so sometimes I feel well enough to be here, then I disappear, then ok enough etc feels never ending and like a vicious circle

I do have two updates in regards to OF and my SG account that I wanted to share with you

1st my new set on...
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scorpiontim87:
Sending you tons of hugs

Stream days

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I think to help my mental health, what I need in my life is a little bit of structure and to create habits.

I live streamed last night and I really enjoyed it, had so much fun. I always forget how much I love it and get reminded everytime I go live.

So I figured, I really should decide on when would be the best...
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scorpiontim87:
I had a lot of fun on your stream and can’t wait to see your next stream 🥰 also, you look very beautiful 😍
user1028241239:
I love your blue hair, it looks great on you 💙

Live stream

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Going live today at 6pm BST!! Just over 3h now 😊

scorpiontim87:
I’m so looking forward to seeing you 🥰

Sorry ive been absent!

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So sorry I've been absent from the site and not active. I'm really struggling with mental health right now. I always get the highs and the lows and right now I'm experiencing the lows

Hopefully I'll be back soon x

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prospero1:
Take your time 💕
scorpiontim87:
Take your time sweetie, we got you 💙

Mental health

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People who know me, know I suffer from different mental health diagnoses

Today is not necessarily about those diagnose but me speaking how much I'm struggling today.

Because I consider SG to be a beautiful society, of beautiful people that I trust and feel secure sharing this within this community, that's why I've decided to write this

I am really not ok today. I feel...
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kalnaur:
I'm having a hell of a time trying to decide what to write here, so you're getting some stream of consciousness nonsense and I'm sorry or you're welcome in advance. I want to say I understand but the truth is that I might not. I'm medicated for my depression, and I'm medicated for my ADHD (and both of those help with my anxiety), but if it's any other mental stuff I truly might not understand. I sympathize? I mean, yes, of course I do, it's brain stuff, and brain stuff is hard. But I also don't know how to make it better, I feel under-trained and ill-equipped to help. I could mention that I too tried to be okay and once I was being treated for certain things I saw how bad it had really been, but while I want to present a personal example to commiserate and show I understand, most people assume I'm trying to make it about me, which isn't the point at all as well as being one of the indicators that I'm almost certainly autistic. I know things that make me happy, but I don't know what makes you happy, and I've been alive long enough to know that my interests aren't everyone's interests (it's games, by the way. I love games. board games, card games, video games. All games excluding mind games.). And if any of this has helped, I'm glad, because I think I've run out of words to think at the moment and I hope you find something to be happy, something that lifts you from the struggles you're facing.
lawrence76:
Stay strong, 💪🏼💪🏼!!🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤘🏼🤘🏼

My latest set

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My set came out a few weeks ago

I don't want it to go forgotten as its still in MR so please go like and comment on it 😊 share some love ♡

Miss always right

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slinks1982:
@xenablue I’m really sorry to hear that, hope it’s just a blip!
lawrence76:
😍😍😍😍😍!!🤘🏼📸🤘🏼

Pole class!

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I've just booked my very first pole class!

It's so so exciting because I've been wanting to for over a decade but I've been too scared.

I do have arthritis in my whole body so I'm very nervous and scared I will be very disappointed if I find out I can't do it.

This one is for all of my fellow pole dancers- are there...
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fredhincanada:
If you and @rhoxieredd did a joint pole stream, you could combine Xena"Blue" and Rhoxie"Red"d to make "Purple Pole."  Lol.
xenablue:
@fredhincanada that made me laugh 😂 but yes, that's very clever

Pride

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I want to talk about a topic that's very difficult for me to talk about... my sexuality. I am 28 years old and to this day I'm not 100% accepting of it. You see.. I'm a demisexual which is a sexuality that falls under asexual umbrella and at times saying this to others can be very difficult. The way I see it emotionally is; everyone...
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sheashannara:
congratulations on living your truth!
nannakya:
❤❤❤

Nakey nakey stream

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As promised since reaching 1000likes on my set, I'm going to be naked today on stream 😊 come join

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