SO I have to take my promotional exam on Saturday .. I did well on the last one but things didn't work out to well
I have 2 bad files in my work folder .. I'm the kind of person who will usually be very laid back . not high strung or anything like that but at work things are different .. the stress . the lack of respect we get from people, supervisors, administration .. it gets to you
One day a few years ago I was working the Center control point of the building .. In the back where I work we have about 16 cells in case you have someone act up and need to lock them in a cell for a while .. The local control point (or LCP) controls the cells .. the doors and all entrences and exiting of the unit .. Cameras as well
I was at a point in m life that was most stressful I had ever been thru
*Mom had Cancer, had a 27 pound tumor removed (yes 27 pounds she refused medical treatment for nearly 2 years as the tumor grew) and was taking her to Chemo
*My ex and I were going thru the discussions of the terms of the agreement and she was threatening me daily about going after my pension, the house entirely, etc
*My son was on probation for getting caught in an abandoned house with some kids .. he had to go to this lady every 2 weeks and talk with her .. one day they gave him a urine test and he had tested positive for Heroin (we later found it was a Vicadin his mom gave him for a tooth ache)
*I was alone for the first time in my life, all my friends I come to find were more like my ex's friends more than me
Anywhore .. An officer comes into the LCP screaming and yelling at me to do my job . blah blah and how I should go home if I didn't want to do it .. He has about 10 years less time than me and was this skinny, elitist attitude having officer who kissed the supervisors asses and generally was two faced .. I lost it .. honestly .. I let him in the LCP thinking wed have a shouting match and be done with it .. At work you cant let people walk over you or they always will .. even officers and Supervisors .. So as I walk over to him I can see in his eyes he was intimidated .. I mean I am a pretty big guy and I think he thought I was going to hit him ... so he gets all fluffy and gets about an inch from my face and says FUCK YOU .. so close that spit actually flew in my face .. and thats when I lost it .. I pushed him our the LCP door ... picked up a chair and threw it against the wall .. I was trying to get mad at every non living object in that room because if not I would have truly hit him .. I don't know what he was thinking but being locked in there with me I think he froze ... He grabbed the radio and called for a supervisor because he was being assaulted by me
Long story short .. it didn't matter that he came in screaming at me .. it didn't matter he spit in my face .. no .. what mattered that I pushed him .. I worded it nicely and said that ...
Because of my experience I wanted to quell this situation and avoid any escalation of further aggression so separated a safe distance between the officer and I
In internal affairs they kept asking me ... Did I push him .. Id say I separated a safe distance because he was in my face screaming at me and I didn't want it to escalate
Of course him being buddy buddy with the Chief .. and most of the supervisors (and I mean buddy buddy as in hang out with them after work) .. well I got charged with conduct unbecoming and charged with 10 days off no pay .. thats 10 working days and basically comes to about 3700 fine in total
The worse part is now I have that in my file .. So anyone wanting to promote me has to read that first and assume I'm this hot head who cant hold his anger
I though I did fairly decent .. the federal government had designated that from your skin to 3 inches is what's known as personal space and you have a right to expect that no one enter your personal space in a threatening manner
Like I said .. he was a kiss ass so nothing happened to him ... just me
just gave me more of a reason to dislike the people I work with .. I don't hang out with them .. don't go to any functions or party's .. I come to work .. talk to the ones I do like ... do my job then come home
and I cant wait .. in 3 years I can leave and do what I truly want to do
TEACH ... I have 97 credits from St John's University .. it would take me a semester or so to get my degree in Criminal Justice and Security Admin (Double Major) and with that I can do what's known as Alternate Route Teaching .. Thats where you teach with any 4 year degree and you go to one class a month and 2 weeks out of the year and at the end you have your teaching cert as if you took Education in school
Id love to teach middle school or high school .. maybe math or Creative Writing ... I love to write as many know but I'm not to versed in the RULES of English .. proper punctuation etc .. I just love to write
To be honest I think id do best being a social worker or a counselor but I think you first need to start teaching then slide into that
So me wanting this promotion is merely a money decision .. more money now the more after I have my 10 years in and can retire .. 65% of my last years Salary with medical for me and my family
So any job I got after that can be something I love rather than worry so much about the pay .. I also considered being a Paramedic but I'm not sure I want those hours
well all have a great Friday and even better weekend
be safe .. later
I have 2 bad files in my work folder .. I'm the kind of person who will usually be very laid back . not high strung or anything like that but at work things are different .. the stress . the lack of respect we get from people, supervisors, administration .. it gets to you
One day a few years ago I was working the Center control point of the building .. In the back where I work we have about 16 cells in case you have someone act up and need to lock them in a cell for a while .. The local control point (or LCP) controls the cells .. the doors and all entrences and exiting of the unit .. Cameras as well
I was at a point in m life that was most stressful I had ever been thru
*Mom had Cancer, had a 27 pound tumor removed (yes 27 pounds she refused medical treatment for nearly 2 years as the tumor grew) and was taking her to Chemo
*My ex and I were going thru the discussions of the terms of the agreement and she was threatening me daily about going after my pension, the house entirely, etc
*My son was on probation for getting caught in an abandoned house with some kids .. he had to go to this lady every 2 weeks and talk with her .. one day they gave him a urine test and he had tested positive for Heroin (we later found it was a Vicadin his mom gave him for a tooth ache)
*I was alone for the first time in my life, all my friends I come to find were more like my ex's friends more than me
Anywhore .. An officer comes into the LCP screaming and yelling at me to do my job . blah blah and how I should go home if I didn't want to do it .. He has about 10 years less time than me and was this skinny, elitist attitude having officer who kissed the supervisors asses and generally was two faced .. I lost it .. honestly .. I let him in the LCP thinking wed have a shouting match and be done with it .. At work you cant let people walk over you or they always will .. even officers and Supervisors .. So as I walk over to him I can see in his eyes he was intimidated .. I mean I am a pretty big guy and I think he thought I was going to hit him ... so he gets all fluffy and gets about an inch from my face and says FUCK YOU .. so close that spit actually flew in my face .. and thats when I lost it .. I pushed him our the LCP door ... picked up a chair and threw it against the wall .. I was trying to get mad at every non living object in that room because if not I would have truly hit him .. I don't know what he was thinking but being locked in there with me I think he froze ... He grabbed the radio and called for a supervisor because he was being assaulted by me
Long story short .. it didn't matter that he came in screaming at me .. it didn't matter he spit in my face .. no .. what mattered that I pushed him .. I worded it nicely and said that ...
Because of my experience I wanted to quell this situation and avoid any escalation of further aggression so separated a safe distance between the officer and I
In internal affairs they kept asking me ... Did I push him .. Id say I separated a safe distance because he was in my face screaming at me and I didn't want it to escalate
Of course him being buddy buddy with the Chief .. and most of the supervisors (and I mean buddy buddy as in hang out with them after work) .. well I got charged with conduct unbecoming and charged with 10 days off no pay .. thats 10 working days and basically comes to about 3700 fine in total
The worse part is now I have that in my file .. So anyone wanting to promote me has to read that first and assume I'm this hot head who cant hold his anger
I though I did fairly decent .. the federal government had designated that from your skin to 3 inches is what's known as personal space and you have a right to expect that no one enter your personal space in a threatening manner
Like I said .. he was a kiss ass so nothing happened to him ... just me
just gave me more of a reason to dislike the people I work with .. I don't hang out with them .. don't go to any functions or party's .. I come to work .. talk to the ones I do like ... do my job then come home
and I cant wait .. in 3 years I can leave and do what I truly want to do
TEACH ... I have 97 credits from St John's University .. it would take me a semester or so to get my degree in Criminal Justice and Security Admin (Double Major) and with that I can do what's known as Alternate Route Teaching .. Thats where you teach with any 4 year degree and you go to one class a month and 2 weeks out of the year and at the end you have your teaching cert as if you took Education in school
Id love to teach middle school or high school .. maybe math or Creative Writing ... I love to write as many know but I'm not to versed in the RULES of English .. proper punctuation etc .. I just love to write
To be honest I think id do best being a social worker or a counselor but I think you first need to start teaching then slide into that
So me wanting this promotion is merely a money decision .. more money now the more after I have my 10 years in and can retire .. 65% of my last years Salary with medical for me and my family
So any job I got after that can be something I love rather than worry so much about the pay .. I also considered being a Paramedic but I'm not sure I want those hours
well all have a great Friday and even better weekend
be safe .. later
lolablu:
I think teaching would be great. I teach college and really like it.