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I was watchig a movie and this is what I heard that rang true.
Love
Big Love
Great Love

Now the difference between the three is love you can get over in two weeks, big love 2 years and great love changes your life. And once great love turns you down a part of you inside dies.

Thought that logic was interesting.
dopespike:
You watch too many movies wink

Does make sense though... I wonder how much of me is dead.

Oh what movie is this btw?

[Edited on Mar 11, 2005 4:50PM]
cellobas:
this world is to fast and unforgiving ....
for love and feelings
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You know how somedays you just don't feel like talking much. Today was one of those days. Well, my friend and I decided to just be friends - just with no sex - which sucks because it was great but i need a friend more than i need a fuck buddy. i am just so lonely. i mean - really. i have lost so much...
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dopespike:
I know how that is, I am very co-dependant. If it were not for my ex girlfriend amanda. I would of dropped out of high school. I need someone there as my source of motivation. If I get an A on an exam, no one cares so why bother. Well to me that's my logic. I havn't had anyone in 2 and a half years though. Probably because I let the wrong ones in and stay away from the right ones. I dunno.

I really hope you feel better soon. I know what your going though and it really does suck. I know you will pull though though. For one your a very attractive girl and two you seem very kind and obsessed with a Pixar CG wink .
beckyuill:
trials huh.

do you have a best friend? i mean a BEST friend. those are needed at times like this. i dont think there is anything anyone can say to make you feel better or change your life right now. but this will pass. thats one thing i can promise. smile

keep truckin girl. thats all anyone expects. xx


kiss
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Well, that went quick. No more friend. fine by me. Gonna miss the sex. But he has another girl he is interested in. Not mad or upset or really any other emotion.

Just as numb as I was last week. Gonna go cook dinner and take a bath. I haven't had me time in a while. Need to do my lesson plans. I am so...
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dopespike:
Awww, there are a million fish in the world literally.

Remember
Just keep swimming, just keep swimming, just keep swimming, swimming, swimming, just keep swimming.

I'll be behind you in the floats and the life perserver.
nerotica:
Thank you for the flatery but you my sweet sound as though you need it much more...You are the true vixen...Very sweet...Hope your day brightens... wink wink wink
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I am so not cool with promises broken to my children. That's really all I have to say. I have come to the realization that promises mean nothing and therefore those words should never pass the lips of another human being.

What the fuck ever. So - I kind of expected it. don't ask me why I did but I did. Oh well -


Just...
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dopespike:
mad

I can't swim btw
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I just read my last entry and realized how fucked up I sounded. It's kinda funny. No sleep will do that to ya. Still hadn't had any but - oh well - gonna clean house and take a shower - boring shit.

It has been a good day.
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dopespike:
that's good wink now, we need to get your life to party fuckin like it's your college freshman year at a frat house status
theburningred:
just saw your last entry....and she is soo not cute! puke I'll tell you what she has... YOUR LEFT-OVER SCRAPS!!! Think of it that way, it might help.

anyway yup i guess i could qualify as "emotionally unstable" especially when i'm cycling... don't you just love being a girl?

btw- i think it would be good to take some positive pics and put them in your journal- because one day you will look back and see her face...and it since it's not a good looking pic it might make ya barf puke

put up some of your babies, aren't they the best thing in your life? Show the world!
smile kiss
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Yeah , well, not sure what to say. Stayed up all night studying for one midterm - and talking to a friend. Mainly talking to him. And not just talking. Lemme put it this way - I am having to wear a damn scarf around my neck because it looked like someone brutalized me.Not really sure what to say about much of anything. I don't...
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dopespike:
<---- jealous tongue jk

anyways, told you there will be more guys... didn't need much patience though. heh. Good luck on your midterm.

The quote is from Finding Nemo btw biggrin
kayblaino:
Sleep deprivation is probably the best wa to write the truth, cuz almost liek being drunk at a certian point you really dont give a fuck. Thats awesome, its so great to have someone different after that long of a time period, so exciting in a way.
I was late to the punch but yeah def finding nemo. wink

~Blaine
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This is the lying cunt that went behind my back and stole my boyfriend. She was nice to my face the whole time. She said that since I was two faced to her she had no problem lying to me. I never said one bad word about her to anyone. The only thing I ever said was it made me uncomfortable them hanging out together....
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maladjusted:
im sorry to hear all this..but I must say I love the way you look at things..bravo girl.
cleopatra:
Whats with the face on it! Ewww! He's have to put a pillow over her head when shaggn her! Gross. Chin up honey. You deserve better
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Cameron is fucking Lindsey. They both lied to me. I caught him at her house - and he answered the door naked. I called her and left her a message telling her she should have handled it like a woman. She is 21. Instead of lying to me. I was stopping by her house to see if they were going to play paintball.

Fucking lying...
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sailordrunk:


A happy chicken, loose on the streets of Key West. Think warm thoughts.

C.
bones_708:
? Nobody comes to the door naked. Unless he was trying to make a point.

They maybe shitty people, but you did say you were done with him.
I do hope you feel better. People do care. smile
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Having a moment. And not a good one.

Why must there always be a battle that I have to face. The three most significant relationships in my life there was always this opposing force that I was up against and each time I was never enough.

Mike: He went back to Monica
Clint - HIs was alcohol
Cameron: Solitude

Two of these guys thus far...
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dopespike:
frown I really wish i knew what to say to make you feel better. Just don't go on happy pills, you will be addicted to them forever. ok? Everything will hop back on track. This is where that patience thing that I mentioned comes in. tongue Remember, I wouldn't blame you if you didn't have any, I don't either.
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Yeah. Um...sure.
BLAH FUCKING BLAH

Tomorrow is responsibility day. Well, part of it anyway. Wanna go play paintball with the crew if they go. I have a list as long as my arm of the school shit I need to do tomorrow. I am such a procrastinator.

Tonight is planned party night. And if not then I can have dinnr cooked for me. I really...
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bones_708:
Some people deserve to have a good life so don't. Now if we could just fix it so everyone gets what they deserve. wink
dopespike:
Ooooo paintball
I miss paintball... anyways, have fun tonight.