I am taking a break from my project.I now have gold and silver paint on my hands. I think i will be finding glitter on everything for the next six months. I used that spray on stuff and like one of those intelligent people did it inside instead of outside.
It is coming along nicely. Not quite what I pictured but acceptable. It will obviously look hand made but since that was the requirement then I should make an A. You know, usually going tinto a class I can tell what kind ofgrade I will make. This time I am not so sure. Probably because there are not many tests that I have to take. It is all field work or in class or projects. I think i am going to have fun this semester. I do feel bad about sleeping through class yesterday. I know that I didn't miss anything - neither prof gives quizzes and one gives study guides for tests. Just the fact that i was too fucking lazy to get out of bed to go. I was sleepy.
Mason's doctor's appointment went well. She put him back on Strattera. I feel so bad for my poor child. He is so sweet and loving but he has problems. I mean more than normal. I hate the fact that he is on medication but without it he is impossible. He has been to several shrinks, evaluated more times than I can count and numerous other things. He is now on 3 different medications - one of which is Prozac. How great is that? A 4 year old on Prozac. It is good that all of this is getting taken care of early but I hope that there are no lasting effects for him. Hopefully he will grow out of it. We will see. He came up to me about 10 times and told me he loved me. I guess he is mine and Ashton is his dad's. It is funny because Ashton use to be mine. I think he has some resentment towards me for the way things are. I wish I could change it for him and make a family for him but it's not possible right now. My 6 year old hates me. Although he did tell me I am great mom. I started to cry.
I am going to get my hair cut tomorrow and I want to do something different with it. You can't really tell from my pic but it is fairly long. I have been growing it for several years. I don't want to cut it and I don't want to dye it or highlight it anymore than I have. i was thinking just dip the tips of my hair into color and leave it at that. That way if it sucks I can cut it off. I would dye it a funky color but going and doing observations at local high schools with purple hair is not going to get me far. Stupid schools and their dress codes. I thought that even when I was in high school.
I guess I should get back to my bulletin board. I am almost done with what I can do here. Glue some more letters. Then a shower. Yeah - a shower.
It is coming along nicely. Not quite what I pictured but acceptable. It will obviously look hand made but since that was the requirement then I should make an A. You know, usually going tinto a class I can tell what kind ofgrade I will make. This time I am not so sure. Probably because there are not many tests that I have to take. It is all field work or in class or projects. I think i am going to have fun this semester. I do feel bad about sleeping through class yesterday. I know that I didn't miss anything - neither prof gives quizzes and one gives study guides for tests. Just the fact that i was too fucking lazy to get out of bed to go. I was sleepy.
Mason's doctor's appointment went well. She put him back on Strattera. I feel so bad for my poor child. He is so sweet and loving but he has problems. I mean more than normal. I hate the fact that he is on medication but without it he is impossible. He has been to several shrinks, evaluated more times than I can count and numerous other things. He is now on 3 different medications - one of which is Prozac. How great is that? A 4 year old on Prozac. It is good that all of this is getting taken care of early but I hope that there are no lasting effects for him. Hopefully he will grow out of it. We will see. He came up to me about 10 times and told me he loved me. I guess he is mine and Ashton is his dad's. It is funny because Ashton use to be mine. I think he has some resentment towards me for the way things are. I wish I could change it for him and make a family for him but it's not possible right now. My 6 year old hates me. Although he did tell me I am great mom. I started to cry.
I am going to get my hair cut tomorrow and I want to do something different with it. You can't really tell from my pic but it is fairly long. I have been growing it for several years. I don't want to cut it and I don't want to dye it or highlight it anymore than I have. i was thinking just dip the tips of my hair into color and leave it at that. That way if it sucks I can cut it off. I would dye it a funky color but going and doing observations at local high schools with purple hair is not going to get me far. Stupid schools and their dress codes. I thought that even when I was in high school.
I guess I should get back to my bulletin board. I am almost done with what I can do here. Glue some more letters. Then a shower. Yeah - a shower.
marybee:
I fall asleep all the time. Not usually for long periods but enought to know i fell asleep. It's hard looking for a job, working, and doing school. Good luck! I was doing that for a while but recently got a job at a daycare. There are a few kids there with depression issues. It gets to you. I can't imagine having a child of my own going threw that. Many parents just ignore it and you're not so don't be so hard on yourself. 
You sound like you're taking on alot so you are much more justified to sleep in class than my lazy ass. 
You sound like you're taking on alot so you are much more justified to sleep in class than my lazy ass.