One of my esteemed colleagues has been on an apocalypse trip as of late. Strange dreams all the while we have ghastly storms. On top of the "Ulysses" style weather, sea creatures of different types have been beaching themselves "en masse" for no apparent reason. Many regular folks would assume this kind of talk to be of the insane or of the conspiracy theory variety....
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arachnequarius:
you and jp, eh? well, all i ask is that you take pictures. 
i fear that my intelligence is being sucked out through various assignments, leaving me little time to think in other directions! ACK - mental piracy. but i shall endeavor to try at least.
hants my dreams? choreography - always. i constantly choreograph in my head - along with the full troupe of dancers in my imagination. its lovely.
i fear that my intelligence is being sucked out through various assignments, leaving me little time to think in other directions! ACK - mental piracy. but i shall endeavor to try at least.
hants my dreams? choreography - always. i constantly choreograph in my head - along with the full troupe of dancers in my imagination. its lovely.
doctashock:
whoa dude... you look mighty clean cut in that profile pic. It's cool though. Make sure to hold it down in T-town for me until you make your escape.
(production)
Half lives
Half emotion
Half blood
Half scar
Production
Anything for production
You cant be
Why should you?
Dont you want to produce?
Take everything off
All that you are born with
Half courage
Half Intuition
Half bond
Half community
Production
Forced for production
No need for god
No need for fulfillment
Why should you?
What about production?
No Roots
No Heart
No Force...
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Half lives
Half emotion
Half blood
Half scar
Production
Anything for production
You cant be
Why should you?
Dont you want to produce?
Take everything off
All that you are born with
Half courage
Half Intuition
Half bond
Half community
Production
Forced for production
No need for god
No need for fulfillment
Why should you?
What about production?
No Roots
No Heart
No Force...
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black_tar_heroin:
maybe you should combine the titles
cheech:
like:
You Have No Right to Love in Passionless Regret
The House of Love and Regret
The Book of Laughter and Forgetting
Oops, that's been used. Kundera once said his book titles were interchangeable; you could call any of his books The Unbearable Lightness of Being or The Book of Laughter and Forgetting, etc.
Play that beat. Play that beat. BANG.
You Have No Right to Love in Passionless Regret
The House of Love and Regret
The Book of Laughter and Forgetting
Oops, that's been used. Kundera once said his book titles were interchangeable; you could call any of his books The Unbearable Lightness of Being or The Book of Laughter and Forgetting, etc.
Play that beat. Play that beat. BANG.
"Poor, twisted child...so ugly...so ugly"
"Sit and dream of love...because that's as close as you'll get to LOVE.."
November Spawned A Monster...truer words were never spoken. Mozzer, you dainty Manc!!!
INFERIORITY AS AN INSTITUTION
Makes sense? Probably not. Are you one of those silly children who always got reprimanded for daydreaming in school? Weren't some forms of creativity emphasized while some were condemned with Scarlet...
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"Sit and dream of love...because that's as close as you'll get to LOVE.."
November Spawned A Monster...truer words were never spoken. Mozzer, you dainty Manc!!!
INFERIORITY AS AN INSTITUTION
Makes sense? Probably not. Are you one of those silly children who always got reprimanded for daydreaming in school? Weren't some forms of creativity emphasized while some were condemned with Scarlet...
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alisa:
the photos from the set i sent in are up in my journal if you want to take a look.
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cutriver:
Yup, or as the Simpsons put it:
Teacher: - if I have five Pepsis and add two, how much more refreshed am I?
Pupil: - Pepsi?
Teacher: - Partial credit!
Nietzsche's most important lesson, maybe, is this: don't be afraid/ashamed of your superiority.
This is also the lesson of the recent animated movie The Incredibles.
I'm serious about this: there's a lot of wisdom out there in animationland...
So, er.... my resolutions are going ok, still not been properly drunk, or smoked a cigarette, or gone too long without exercise or fresh fruit...
Don't feel much different, mind.
Teacher: - if I have five Pepsis and add two, how much more refreshed am I?
Pupil: - Pepsi?
Teacher: - Partial credit!
Nietzsche's most important lesson, maybe, is this: don't be afraid/ashamed of your superiority.
This is also the lesson of the recent animated movie The Incredibles.
I'm serious about this: there's a lot of wisdom out there in animationland...
So, er.... my resolutions are going ok, still not been properly drunk, or smoked a cigarette, or gone too long without exercise or fresh fruit...
Don't feel much different, mind.
I'm truly sorry for neglecting you guys and your little spaces of ranting. December has been about as trying as a brick of C4 in a microwave. Like, KABLAMMO trying.
1) Went to the emergency room for gall bladder problem which I thought was a heart attack. I told my body that it was a crying pussy and that my ghost would haunt my corpse...
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1) Went to the emergency room for gall bladder problem which I thought was a heart attack. I told my body that it was a crying pussy and that my ghost would haunt my corpse...
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naja_haje:
Well i'm an old gold tooth
an I'll tell ya the truth
that I live in the mouth
of my HOMEYS!
Your a tough sum bitch WFP.
an I'll tell ya the truth
that I live in the mouth
of my HOMEYS!
Your a tough sum bitch WFP.
black_tar_heroin:
bah.. the porno.. fuck the porno i think i would rather be a garbage man
I am in retail. This is the absolute worst time of the year for me. Especially in regards to keeping up with all of your journals. I promise to post a proper update and "holla back" at all of your various journals. In the meantime, here's some entertainment.
GET YOUR DARK AGES CARB FREE!
"Holy marauding barrell ass! What's that!"
"Aww hell, you've never seen...
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GET YOUR DARK AGES CARB FREE!
"Holy marauding barrell ass! What's that!"
"Aww hell, you've never seen...
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souljerk:
you leave me thirsty very
cheech:
Wow, it's been a while
I'm readin the Barry Miles - Zappa - book. I love the description of the filming of 200 Motels. This is how Zappa recruited Keith Moon for it: 1) at dinner next to Townshend and Moon, 2) leans over and said, "How'd you guys like to be in a film?" 3) Tells them to go to the Kensington Hotel the next day to film.
The old guy from A Hard Day's Night, Wilfred Bramble, was in the film until, after barrages of smut and filthy dialogue, he ran yelling from the set, never to return.
I'm readin the Barry Miles - Zappa - book. I love the description of the filming of 200 Motels. This is how Zappa recruited Keith Moon for it: 1) at dinner next to Townshend and Moon, 2) leans over and said, "How'd you guys like to be in a film?" 3) Tells them to go to the Kensington Hotel the next day to film.
The old guy from A Hard Day's Night, Wilfred Bramble, was in the film until, after barrages of smut and filthy dialogue, he ran yelling from the set, never to return.
DR. PHIBES JAZZERCISES TO STARDOM
Current mood: Lonesome, Broke, and Driftin'
Too good to be true...BUT IT IS. Dr. Phibes gave up his career as keyboardist for Iron Butterfly to become a FITNESS SENSATION. Lots of angel dust, absinthe, and elbow grease are behind this transformation. Anyone that stands in his path will have to deal with man-eating pigeons and other detestable parasites. Word on...
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Current mood: Lonesome, Broke, and Driftin'
Too good to be true...BUT IT IS. Dr. Phibes gave up his career as keyboardist for Iron Butterfly to become a FITNESS SENSATION. Lots of angel dust, absinthe, and elbow grease are behind this transformation. Anyone that stands in his path will have to deal with man-eating pigeons and other detestable parasites. Word on...
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souljerk:
Absenth and keyboardest from iron butterfly should never again be mentioned in one sentance.
and i own several dead can dance cds and even better i like um'...
could be worse, could be manhym steemroller orrr.... how ever you spell that new age crap
and i own several dead can dance cds and even better i like um'...
could be worse, could be manhym steemroller orrr.... how ever you spell that new age crap
cutriver:
You are clearly obsessed with absinthe - is it helping?
I never got around to drinking any in Paris, although I understand only very tame varieties are available these days...
Do you know, oh obscure artrock expert, of the short-lived British 1990s psychedelic rock dreamers Dr Phibes and the HOuse of Wax Equations? I've got a vinyl copy of their album Whirlpool somewhere, and very good it is too>
I never got around to drinking any in Paris, although I understand only very tame varieties are available these days...
Do you know, oh obscure artrock expert, of the short-lived British 1990s psychedelic rock dreamers Dr Phibes and the HOuse of Wax Equations? I've got a vinyl copy of their album Whirlpool somewhere, and very good it is too>
Prejudices? Most of us have some mild case of this beast if not a full blown epidemic of it. Some pick a certain race. Some think that women are second class citizens. Thankfully, I've never had issues with those two big tickets. Both of my parents were union workers who always emphasized equality of race. Most of the important people in my life have been...
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zenhell:
HAVE YOU SEEN YOUR MOTHER BABY
STANDING IN THE SHADOWS
STANDING IN THE SHADOWS
cheech:
The book I have is 365 Takes, a sorta day-calendar-book of all things AW... however, most of the good quotes are from POPism, The Philosophy of Andy Warhol; From A to B and Back Again, and that one called America looks promising.
I had Sam Rivers (Dave Holland) and AEoC all over my Xmas list, but of course my mom couldn't find any around these skeezy stripmall stores; I'm going to need to purchase a lotta stuff online LIKE A BIG CAPITALIST.
Old Whiskey River is good as great good stuff. You might wanna drop $20 or 30 on it; mine came with a Willie nelson guitar pick, as I said.
I got the ZAPPA too. The package had big GREASY stains on the botton, like someone's 19-year-old fruitcake weaped pus on it... nothing seems injured, though, and I'm sure I can take those NEWPORTS coupons and buy some cartonsfor my HOMIES when we're standing out on the corner in our Puma sweats beatboxing to Roxanne Shante. I am not always ALIVE WITH PLEASURE but ZAPPA should help.
I had Sam Rivers (Dave Holland) and AEoC all over my Xmas list, but of course my mom couldn't find any around these skeezy stripmall stores; I'm going to need to purchase a lotta stuff online LIKE A BIG CAPITALIST.
Old Whiskey River is good as great good stuff. You might wanna drop $20 or 30 on it; mine came with a Willie nelson guitar pick, as I said.
I got the ZAPPA too. The package had big GREASY stains on the botton, like someone's 19-year-old fruitcake weaped pus on it... nothing seems injured, though, and I'm sure I can take those NEWPORTS coupons and buy some cartonsfor my HOMIES when we're standing out on the corner in our Puma sweats beatboxing to Roxanne Shante. I am not always ALIVE WITH PLEASURE but ZAPPA should help.
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apostrophenow:
Yep, if the Starship Enterprise were powered by Free Jazz instead of Dilythium Crystals...
...who knows?
...who knows?
"Shyness can stop you from doing all the things in life you'd like to"
It's tricky to find similarly minded folks in a town where people with the same mindset can't congregate. As much as it is great to meet new and interesting people...I hate hanging out in bars. The music is typically despicable and the people very sleazy or not into anything worthwhile. Call...
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It's tricky to find similarly minded folks in a town where people with the same mindset can't congregate. As much as it is great to meet new and interesting people...I hate hanging out in bars. The music is typically despicable and the people very sleazy or not into anything worthwhile. Call...
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anonymouse:
It's entirely possible G.G. Allin was Republican. He was... kind of heinous, but I love him anyway. You know who's heinous? And you know who I don't love? Vincent Gallo. Ewwww. He looks like he smells like a public toilet.
trixel:
I'm not sure that ALL women are like that. There are a few who are like that, but one wonders if they are lying to themselves when they say the lie. As in, do they believe the lie?
I've had a number of spectacularly shitty relationships with people of different persuasions, genders, and flavours. What did many of them have in common? They were jerks. Yes, I had a thing about going for jerks I think said thing was related to a distinct lack of self-esteem.
Now, I've been with the bad boy, the nice guy and finally I think I've found a bad boy/nice guy. Well, he's so much more than that. He's wonderful.
What was the point of this ramble? I think I meant to say that people learn, and some people take longer than others to learn that pretty boy asshole is really not that rewarding in the longer scheme of things.
I've had a number of spectacularly shitty relationships with people of different persuasions, genders, and flavours. What did many of them have in common? They were jerks. Yes, I had a thing about going for jerks I think said thing was related to a distinct lack of self-esteem.
Now, I've been with the bad boy, the nice guy and finally I think I've found a bad boy/nice guy. Well, he's so much more than that. He's wonderful.
What was the point of this ramble? I think I meant to say that people learn, and some people take longer than others to learn that pretty boy asshole is really not that rewarding in the longer scheme of things.
My "Nick Cave Occupying Two Spaces Of Corporate Airtime At The Same Time" prophecy has come true. Naturally, riches have not come my silly way. New, and interesting health problems are a-brewin'. Friday was a fucking dull and dreary day at the pawn shop. The weather was cold and rainy and the customers were exceptionally smelly. Like old fast food work clothes and ripe ass...
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trixel:
So I rested for a time alternating between reading a WIRE UK mag and fighting my boxer puppy with a can of Black Flag and a roman trident. Like Spartacus sharp. Call PETA if you want. The heathen mutt can take a million tridents swung by a million enslaved Moors and still come back for dessert.
that made me smile. So while you may be crazy, you most certainly have not lost your ability to write.
seriously though, I went through periods during my clinical depression where crying came outta nowhere like that. Is it possible maybe what you describe might have been a panic attack? I've never had those, but I did have crying for no reason. Oh, and waking up in tears. Yeah, that was fun. It goes on, but I won't bore you with the details. Suffice it to say I went through about 5 mental health professionals before finding someone I could talk to. This was after I took Effexor for a little bit because I was considering offing myself. I weaned myself from Effexor. I think it may have been helpful during the worst of it. I'm not sure on that one. I am sure that my therapist saved my life. I'm also sure that working out, starting regular exercise, helped balance my outta whack chemistry a little. So perhaps you just need to continue on your quest for someone to listen to you. Talk therapy, I think they call it.
And speaking of talking, you know where to find me on IM if you want to.
that made me smile. So while you may be crazy, you most certainly have not lost your ability to write.
seriously though, I went through periods during my clinical depression where crying came outta nowhere like that. Is it possible maybe what you describe might have been a panic attack? I've never had those, but I did have crying for no reason. Oh, and waking up in tears. Yeah, that was fun. It goes on, but I won't bore you with the details. Suffice it to say I went through about 5 mental health professionals before finding someone I could talk to. This was after I took Effexor for a little bit because I was considering offing myself. I weaned myself from Effexor. I think it may have been helpful during the worst of it. I'm not sure on that one. I am sure that my therapist saved my life. I'm also sure that working out, starting regular exercise, helped balance my outta whack chemistry a little. So perhaps you just need to continue on your quest for someone to listen to you. Talk therapy, I think they call it.
And speaking of talking, you know where to find me on IM if you want to.
cutriver:
This is an incredible entry. Not wanting to make light of your distress, it takes a real talent in writing to go from a kind of comical picaresque monologue to the depths of despair like that...
Your episode sounds like an anxiety attack, I've had 'em. I think it is a good sign that you envisage your (unlikely) mental disintegration and internment with anger: this signifies, as Swoo might say, that you haven't given up.
There is nothing wrong you, young man, it is simply that your soul is too big. It's nothing to be ashamed of.
Your episode sounds like an anxiety attack, I've had 'em. I think it is a good sign that you envisage your (unlikely) mental disintegration and internment with anger: this signifies, as Swoo might say, that you haven't given up.
There is nothing wrong you, young man, it is simply that your soul is too big. It's nothing to be ashamed of.
FLUX INFORMATION SCIENCES: Rape with tinfoil wil certainly appeal to those fucking up around mountain ranges. I have no idea if this has anything to do with military bases. Dose me up, you fucking stuttering freak
HENRY FLYNT: Sometimes I'm bored with Swamp Thing. He bleeds this DM-less cough syrup all over my fucking persian rugs. Granted, they're not authentically persian. I don't really see...
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HENRY FLYNT: Sometimes I'm bored with Swamp Thing. He bleeds this DM-less cough syrup all over my fucking persian rugs. Granted, they're not authentically persian. I don't really see...
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binkymcqueen:
The minutemen one is the best...that just fucking kills....
man, you need to get your hands on some TREAT HER RIGHT...look for it you will dig...
also try to pick up the tzadik release of the irving stone memorial concert top fucking notch in any decade.....and for the record...the logic is mullet endorsed...
man, you need to get your hands on some TREAT HER RIGHT...look for it you will dig...
also try to pick up the tzadik release of the irving stone memorial concert top fucking notch in any decade.....and for the record...the logic is mullet endorsed...
arachnequarius:
omg, that is fabulous. FABULOUS!! how wonderful.
and i send you many blessings, sir. if you have to make a choice between rich and dead, i'd go with rich. then, you can afford a level of decadence that will ensure a spectacular death from excess. and who doesn't want that?
and i send you many blessings, sir. if you have to make a choice between rich and dead, i'd go with rich. then, you can afford a level of decadence that will ensure a spectacular death from excess. and who doesn't want that?
rockin blues trio from the 70's......ace!
thanks for your thought on the writing, my dear. to steal a line from 16 candles, that is why they call them crushes, huh?
my goodness - i've just read your entry. that was absolutely gorgeous - excruciating, excoriating, and deeply grievous - but beyond important. you have an insightful soul, mr. fight. everything you say has truth in it, and yet, each day is still another opportunity to break a little bit of light into the chaos. i am sending you that little light right now.
♥