12:14 AM - Good Fucking Bye
So you broke down
Trying to leave town
I broke down crying on your return
You left me feeling hopeful
I'll never see your face again
You made for a bad lover's liver
You stole all the covers and busted my head
You made me such an ass hole
I wish we'd never met
I'm tired of being bored
I'm through with the headaches
And hiding my hands
that tremble like earthquakes
Under the table under the daytime sky
Good fucking bye
And when you lose hope
It's hard to cope
Watching the tyranny with sober eyes
At daybreak and sunset
All hours in between are spent murdering time
You made for a bad lover's liver
You sold all the covers and fucked up my head
You made me such an ass hole
I wish we'd never met
I'm tired of being bored
I'm through with the headaches at night
And my hands they tremble like earthquakes
Under the table under the daytime sky
Good fucking bye
Good fucking bye
Good fucking bye
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I let myself fall apart because of you. I let you dictate how I feel about myself. Im pretty fucked up but you made everything worse. How hard is it to treat someone you care about with respect? Youve cheated, youve lied, youve taken advantage, youve treated me like I am some disposable girl. Then you wonder why Im so broken and sick of all this shit. Evereyone I know tells me to runa way from you as fast as I can, and I cant say I blame them. RelaTionships are supposed to be uplifting but not this one...we bring out the worst in each other. Why cant you just let me go? You obviously dont want this. All the therapy in the world wouldnt stop me from believeing this relationship is toxic. Who in the fucking world doesnt like hearing nice things from their partner???? You made me feel like it was wrong to want so little.
No matter what Ive done for you, you turn it around and make me feel bad about it. After the hundreds of dollars Ive spent bailing you out of your own problems, the time I spent trying to help you when i should have been helping myself, the times Ive dropped everything to spend time with you , the time spent thinking about you......after it all, i realize I should have spent that on me. Youre a real piece of shit for not treating me the way I deserve to be treated. I cant believe the person Ive turned into because of the things you do to me. You make me feel unlovable, you make me feel too broken to care anymore. I see you treat everyone else better than me....I dont deserve that. I deserve someone who wants to tell me Im pretty, who wants to spend time with me, who appreciates everything I do for them. You arent that person. Just fucking get out of my life already.
Good fucking bye waynecubus