wanderlustt

Every now and then my life is rained full of momentary lapses of reason... Raw emotion takes over. At the oddest times, so controlled as I am. But still it erupts... It washes over me like a monsoon.

And, in those moments, I just have to remind myself when I'm at my best.... Even as I feel it all.

Although I've been hurt by another.

HERE.... Now... here I make it up... I make it real.... and feed it to myself. Like some strange celebration of that long ago storm.

This is a human action / reaction to anything outside our own ability to control at that moment of hurt. \. Really, I.... Originally experienced it. - In-grained it. I possessed it... that memory of pain. And I was forced to make it only mine. Really, all as an act to keep me safe from further pain.

I really don't need it. But, I'm no better or no worse than anyone else. That memory of pain completes my underlying personal dogma. Like your enemy makes you complete. And you understand hate. Because you've experienced hate and the hurt that's come from it.

But, more importantly... others here , almost everyone thankfully... you know that moment on hated /love ( even if it's not the exact same circumstances... of course it can't be.. each to each is our own experiences, emotions and reactions. They are like individual, unique rain drops falling to earth ) But, you understand.

And that is what I thank you for.... Because your replies make me think past my temporary, Myopic pain. to a moment where I might believe again...

Thank you....

You too! Lets hope it only brings awesomeness!