Its just been one of those weeks.
i havent posted in a while, but its just been one of those times in life where you need to vent to some people who may understand. ive been pretty stressed out due to the multitude of issuse that seemed to seek me out recently. i have a friend who had an incident last friday involving sexaul assault that has been tearing me up pretty good this week... shes one of my best friends and her boyfriend is currently in another stae so she called me the night of the incident and ever since ive been stressed out and losing sleep because every part of my being wants to track the piece of shit down and be perfectly content with a life sentence but he seems to avoid every place im sure to find him. on top of that i found out this week that my 35yr old aunt was diagnosed with cancer. they havent finished all of the scans and tests yet, but they know that there is a large amount of secondary cancer on her liver and are now trying to find the initial source. in my current situation, being in the navy across the country, ive been deeply stressed and distraught over my current family situation because i feel so distant and isolated. i knew what i was getting into when i enlisted in the service, but this being the first real emotional incident that has occured since i joined, its really pushing my limits mentally and emotionally. some of this may be scattered and random, but i just needed to dump off a bit of my emotions this evening.
i havent posted in a while, but its just been one of those times in life where you need to vent to some people who may understand. ive been pretty stressed out due to the multitude of issuse that seemed to seek me out recently. i have a friend who had an incident last friday involving sexaul assault that has been tearing me up pretty good this week... shes one of my best friends and her boyfriend is currently in another stae so she called me the night of the incident and ever since ive been stressed out and losing sleep because every part of my being wants to track the piece of shit down and be perfectly content with a life sentence but he seems to avoid every place im sure to find him. on top of that i found out this week that my 35yr old aunt was diagnosed with cancer. they havent finished all of the scans and tests yet, but they know that there is a large amount of secondary cancer on her liver and are now trying to find the initial source. in my current situation, being in the navy across the country, ive been deeply stressed and distraught over my current family situation because i feel so distant and isolated. i knew what i was getting into when i enlisted in the service, but this being the first real emotional incident that has occured since i joined, its really pushing my limits mentally and emotionally. some of this may be scattered and random, but i just needed to dump off a bit of my emotions this evening.