So I'm hanging out with Erika again for better or worse. It's cool I can actually sit there next to her and not feel anything, numbness yay! Do I care for her, I do, do I love her, I do am I in love with her, probably not but I don't know.
I'm getting the feeling that some people don't want me to see her, because they say it'll hurt me again, eventually. I await that to happen, honestly now I don't care how much someone can hurt me. I'm just okay with everything now that I'm just here.
I've been neglecting a friend now again, sucks to be her. I mean I didn't do it on purpose, just I'm not a good friend as it turns out. Possibly due to my insomnia which is having emotional and personal effects on me. I read some articles on Fatal Sporadic Insomnia and Fatal Familia Insomnia, which I hope to god I don't have. The disease is related to the protein Prion which controls the Thalamus which controls sleep. The youngest recorded case is 30 years of age, but more commonly found in someone 40-60 years of age. Basically its rare and it kills. The body stops functioning and dementia sets in, in about 3 years the person dies from the disease (Possibly due to complications of motor functions and brain activity failing.) There is no cure.
I'm pretty sure I've just got a regular form of insomnia, but who knows. We'll all know in a few years when if I completely crazy and die. I think though basically I have a regular form of Insomnia because of Celiac disease, which in turn is caused by stress, emotional stress, physical stress, etc. And it changed my diet, thus causing insomnia. Odd that I get on disease and I get two, it's a two for one deal with me!
Okay but back to what this post was originally about. So I figured, I have very very few friends I hang out with, and Erika was cool to hang out with. So I chose to not lose another friend because I'm dumb, jealous and have emo tendancies. I look at it this way, I get hurt again my own god damned fault, but that's if I try to pursue something with her again, which I am not. Now anyways, until something clicks in my head and I try again. Which it won't.
Blah I'm going onto another topic now. So work is getting ridiculously stressful and I am wanting to get out so much more. I've become a douche to some customers and it doesn't matter. I'm waiting for the call from corporate about a complaint against me. Which will be fun!
So now I'm going around to various stores I want to work at and apply for management positions. Hopefully someone will hire me into management and I can get away from GameStop.
Lost the will to write now. Peace.
~Michael
I'm getting the feeling that some people don't want me to see her, because they say it'll hurt me again, eventually. I await that to happen, honestly now I don't care how much someone can hurt me. I'm just okay with everything now that I'm just here.
I've been neglecting a friend now again, sucks to be her. I mean I didn't do it on purpose, just I'm not a good friend as it turns out. Possibly due to my insomnia which is having emotional and personal effects on me. I read some articles on Fatal Sporadic Insomnia and Fatal Familia Insomnia, which I hope to god I don't have. The disease is related to the protein Prion which controls the Thalamus which controls sleep. The youngest recorded case is 30 years of age, but more commonly found in someone 40-60 years of age. Basically its rare and it kills. The body stops functioning and dementia sets in, in about 3 years the person dies from the disease (Possibly due to complications of motor functions and brain activity failing.) There is no cure.
I'm pretty sure I've just got a regular form of insomnia, but who knows. We'll all know in a few years when if I completely crazy and die. I think though basically I have a regular form of Insomnia because of Celiac disease, which in turn is caused by stress, emotional stress, physical stress, etc. And it changed my diet, thus causing insomnia. Odd that I get on disease and I get two, it's a two for one deal with me!
Okay but back to what this post was originally about. So I figured, I have very very few friends I hang out with, and Erika was cool to hang out with. So I chose to not lose another friend because I'm dumb, jealous and have emo tendancies. I look at it this way, I get hurt again my own god damned fault, but that's if I try to pursue something with her again, which I am not. Now anyways, until something clicks in my head and I try again. Which it won't.
Blah I'm going onto another topic now. So work is getting ridiculously stressful and I am wanting to get out so much more. I've become a douche to some customers and it doesn't matter. I'm waiting for the call from corporate about a complaint against me. Which will be fun!
So now I'm going around to various stores I want to work at and apply for management positions. Hopefully someone will hire me into management and I can get away from GameStop.
Lost the will to write now. Peace.
~Michael