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happy birthday!

Hmmmm seems you were not cancelled after all. Does not mean you are still around... but your legacy is.

Happy B-Day!

how's the conquering going?

Congratulations of the conquering of Portland. We need a leader with a firm hand.

feeling like the heart song right now (post). lots of change for me this past month and i do not take change very well.

When the moon was young, when the month was May,
When the stage was set for my holiday,
I saw shining lights, but I never knew:
They were you. They were you. They were you.

'The Fantasticks' interesting choice

hey eurydice,

NYC is a tough place very fast paced. maybe California sunshine will do u good. but y Portland??
just hang in there and be safe.

eurydice,
in all seriousness, the cutting thing has to stop. i say this because i care ( i know it sounds corny 'cause i only know u from this sight ). we all go numb in life and we handle it in many different ways to make us feel something again. i had a friend who cut. she said the reason y was because she didnt feel life anymore. so i am asking please dont cut yourself anymore.
u seem to have some smarts 'bout u. u analyse and form your own opinions and speak your truths, dont change that!!.stick with whatu believe!.
i have a poem i wrote a long time ago that i think u might like. it goes like this...

when you were young
a warrior you stood strong
standing on solid ground
as years passed a shaman you became
searching..for the answers
dreams not yet realized
you need both..the warrior and shaman
to become your own chieftain

dont sacrafice your beliefs for anyone. do what u think is right and put enough trust in the decisions u make!!
no matter what some one says its u.. who u have to face each and everyday.

just my two cents and

Hello. Just a random passerby. I have to agree with most of what both those guys said. Except I would ditch the guy already. If he's showing signs of things you don't like, why wait till it gets out of control and you simply can't sever the tie that easily? Just my own opinion. And there is nothing wrong with being as picky as you are. You should want your friends and significant others to be able live up to your standards. Or something acceptable. I try and live that way all the time. Unfortunately it's caused me a lack of friends and significant others. But I'm fine with that. There are plenty of things to do out in the world to keep a person busy. All in all be happy! Which means you should try to stop cutting. Pain is a good way of testing your will to live. What happens if you lose that will and go too far just as the closest person to your standards walks in your life and all they can do is watch the end? I've seen that first hand. It definately was a shame.

Anyway, being lonely is hard to deal with sometimes. Usually you get temporary relief. Someone interesting to talk to. Or just doing something nice for a stranger and getting a smile or "Thank you!" Unless you're in Antarctica, you're never really alone. Definately not in NYC. Just stay happy!

I probably went way off from what you were talking about. I hope it made some sense though.

Take care!

whoa.
damn straight! don't take any shit from that ipod.

i have selected you for a random journal comment.

good luck with that whole celibacy thing.



[Edited on Jul 05, 2004 9:13PM]

ahh, celibacy is for suckers.

I'm digging on the second one, and that's saying a lot. I survived getting an entire English degree without ever developing any sincere appreciation for poetry*.

It's an interesting sign of the times that I had to join a website of ill repute to start finding poetry I like. (Dogslife, damn him, has thrown up a pile of good stuff in all the many months I've been chatting with him.)

* - okay, okay... there was some Walt Whitman that I really liked.

i lost an ear also.

That is what it looks like when I try to pull and eyelash out of it.

About your thing with guys... the rules (written by men of course) are usually the same. Some guys get dropped on the head at birth, and don't follow the rules. Those are the ones you want.

1. You are a female, if you enjoy sex, you are a slut. If you don't you are a cold hearted, frigid ice queen, etc.

2. Men have penises, it is acceptable for them to put them where ever they wish, usually with few consequences.

So I say fuck the rules. See I don't care whether someone sees me as a bitch or a slut. If they really know me, then they will see the real me. The older I get the more I realize is how I see and treat myself. That will really dictate how other people treat me.

It really is more complicated than that, but you will realize one day that it is really only you that matter. True friends will accept you for (almost) whatever you do or act. Sometimes, you may mistakes, and you hope your friends will forgive you. Trial and error is life.

BTW some people do practice random acts of kindness, but they are looking to get something out of it. Feeling good about doing something for someone else.

Ciao

I've wandered into Haiku land and I do not speak haikuese. *cry*