vivienne

Long time no update. My life has been a bit insane lately. I am still recovering (poorly) for my lastest surgery. I have had a fever for three weeks and have been in and out of the hospital. I was coping ok until my Grandfather passed away last week. That has been the hardest thing that I have ever gone through. He was such an important figure in my life. I miss him so much. I can't even begin to describe how big of an influence he has been in my life. I am trying to keep my mind busy and think positive thoughts but it rarely works. I do have moments of happiness but then feel guilty for feeling happy. Hopefully I will be back to normal soon. I really miss work. It's been a lonely month.