vivian

I hate self photos and when people share them. Normal ones are bad enough without the girls who completely contort themselves to look "better" in self photos. When in truth most girls are pretty enough not to need odd angles. Im not going to completely lie and say that all girls don't need weird angles for self photos. Here is the catch if you think you do its not because you aren't pretty its because you are self conscious. Everyone can see it when you twist your body in a photo. Have someone else take the picture until you get a better self esteem. Another thing if you dont think highly of your self (your probably wrong) but dont take close ups. You already magnify flaws that are so imperceptible to everyone else that you are going to hate the close up shot. Then you will probably crop it and turn it black and white. It screams bad self esteem! You shouldn't have one in the first place. The funniest thing is that I truly believe beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Make yourself seen properly! I know that in the past I have totally dug guys/ girls that made my friends go Wtf? So seriously everyone is beautiful to some one. For me it was a blond haired blue eyed self conscious older boy in high school, later it was a slightly older brown haired blue eyed boy whos face was bright red from Acutane and couldn't speak to women omg i was so into him. Finally the love of my life a way older 32 not self conscious (but sticks to the the nerd pattern) light brown haired blue eyed boy (OH MY I just realized I have a thing for blue eyes.) with a big nose and white knobby knees the nerdiest nerds would envy...six pack... How that happened I know not? Techy who never sees daylight... Any who moving on... Girls lol much more interesting! I want Helena Bonaham Carter like she was freaking starbursts in one of my sugar crazes. She is married ti my favorite director so i would do anything lol any who then we have my best friend don't really want her but she is super cute and surprise blue eyes and very weird style. I am honestly not preaching from inexperience. I have many a picture where i have twisted oddly from when i was younger aka about 4 years ago when I was so self conscious I piled on creme foundation 4 layers thick to hide freckles i was sure took over my entire face and made me the ugliest person in the world. It wasn't until I was at a bonfire that year my sister overheard my Evil motocross riding boyfriend's ( not my style guy nothing wrong but should have been a sign.) brother telling another friend that he could see my layers of foundation from across the fire. It was true not a nice thing to say but true. I hated him the friend stood up for me saying that he didnt know why i even wore make up but he didnt think it looked bad. The next day i stopped wearing all make up but thin eye liner and mascara. Most days not even eyeliner. I do wear make up i just realized that my opinion of myself was way Fed up. I am saying all this because I got bored and took a few self photos. I hate them but I do it when I get bored and if they are good i cant resist posting them from time to time. Im going to post a good one now if my phone cooperates. But if you want proof that Im not just being snobby and speaking from experience on self conscious over made up photos let me know ill post em. I just am kinda sick of pretty girls obviously sporting their self consciousness when they really shouldn't. I think the interwebs could use more full on pics of pretty girls not cropped twisted or trying too hard. Love to you all! P.s. This entry was done on my I phone took me for fucking ever and its so hard to fix every typo so please deal with them! Again lots of love!