vitaly_yaksminov

Ok, so heres my story and i'm sticking with it. It will probably sound stupid to anyone who reads it, but when I say women generally don't like/talk to me, I mean that to the extremist form... if there were a Jihadist view of women not talking to me, they would take that stance.

Let me preface this by saying that if anyone saw Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, and remembers what Jim Carray's character was saying at the beginning, about how he falls in love with every girl he sees... i'm the same way. I'm the type of unstable lunatic that can daydream out an entire relationship in the span of the 15 minutes that I see some cute/attractive girl.

So there I am in my history class, and sitting next to me is this girl. This is the perfect scenario for me to daydream in. The history teacher lectures for about an hour and a half straight, and after 20-30 minutes usually I can do nothing BUT daydream to keep from going insane.

The girl is cute, nice, and smart. In one of our early classes, we had a group quiz in class and we got grouped together. It was grouping a bunch of things into different categories, and she just happened to know almost all of them. We ended up getting the highest grade out of all the groups.

I immediately respected her intellectually and so I would say Hello before class occasionally when my nerve would allow it. (I'm a social freakshow) She had her essay read in front of the class as the outstanding essay of the midterm. So we started talking gradually more and more, but nothing really important or noteworthy, just 'hellos' and what not.

Then about two weeks ago, on a really rainy day, I was slogging out to my car after class, when she came up behind me and said Hello and asked where I was headed. So we got to talking, and she says shes an English major, and I say Hey, me too, what are you in English for? She says, Creative writing... what a coincidence, me too! She wants to write Fantasy novels, what the fuck?! Me too!

So we really get to talking, and shes really cool, nice awesome whatever. She loves Dragonlance, which is my favorite series. Shes been writing since she was 9 years old, and has several finished unpublished novels that shes scared to try to get published.

This all sounds just peachy doesn't it? You're not Vitaly Yaksminov though, if some shit doesn't scream through like a hurricane and fuck it up.

Somehow we get to talking about looks, and I said something like, "Yeah, i'm a babyface, everything thinks i'm just 18, but really i'm 24. How old are you?"

"Me? Oh, i'm 16."

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In the back of my mind i'm thinking, how can this be? Shes the smartest person in the class, shes like 5'9, she looks like shes atleast 18/19, the fact that she could even possibly be that young never even crept into my mind. It hit me like a ton of bricks.

So at this point i'm lost. I don't know what to do or say anymore, but we keep talking and have an amiable conversation. Its at the point now where we spend an hour after each class just shooting the shit. I don't know what to do because I actually like her, despite the fact that shes 16. Shes probably more mature than I am, atleast she seems that way.

But 24 year old and 16 year olds don't mix. Its illegal, its immoral... fuck its every negative word starting with the letter 'i' that I can think of!

She brought me some of her writing today, and its damn good. Its publishable good. So not only is she 16, but she intimidates me mentally, and not many people do that to me, I generally hold my mind in high esteem. (LOL, that sounds cheesy, but its true damnit!)

So I really don't know what to do about all this. I have almost 0 experience with women as it is, and can you even consider a 16 year old a woman to begin with. Any advice you want to give me would be accepted. I don't know what to do, so i'll just throw up this puke smiley-face and call it a night...