Today I was so busy I hadn't thought about Nick, until I finished being busy and a wave of sadness washed over me at a red light on the corner of First Street and Cochran. It's been exactly 2 weeks.
I miss his face. I miss who he used to be. I don't understand what happened and I'm thinking I might never. And this makes me sad. I don't even know if I want him back, I just want to hear from him, and get a hug, and just talk. But there is nothing I can do except focus on me right now, and if I hear from him then awesome. If I don't, well, I hope that doesn't happen but it's a definite possibility so I have to keep busy. This weekend I guess I will make it my mission to find a distraction in the form of a make out buddy, male or female. I'm not picky haha.
i've been fucking up on my diet lately and I've noticed a definite moo factor increase, so today I'm hitting it hardcore and I refuse to give in. In fact, today I have had my BFL morning bar, and right now I am eating meal #2, a roasted eggplant and arugala and endive salad, sprinkled with feta and pine nuts. So damn good. I love me some Trader Joe's. It's easy to get healthy pre portioned stuff there that fits in with my diet.
Next meal is at 4:45, and back to the gym for a round of weights and another half hour of cardio. I rushed it this morning and only did about 45 min of cardio because I had my hoohoo waxing appt, which I missed anyway because I misplaced my debit card and did not find it till way after the appt was over. So I had to reschedule for Friday. And it's not like it matters anyway, no one is going to be seeing my hoo hoo regardless- it's only for my sense of cleanliness. So there.
New client tonight. The dude is recovering from brain cancer. This ought to be a challenge.
What is everyone doing for the 4th? Would anyone like to invite me over since I have no plans?
P.S. I almost started bawling at the gym (2nd time today). But on the plus side I burned 750 calories, so I guess that makes up for the emo factor.
Oh and before I left to go to the gym again I almost ran over my parents dog. She was sleeping in front of my truck and I didn't see her because I walked around the back of my truck in to the street to get in and I almost ran the fucker over. Thankfully she is ok, but damn am I talented or what?
Someone kill me please.
I miss his face. I miss who he used to be. I don't understand what happened and I'm thinking I might never. And this makes me sad. I don't even know if I want him back, I just want to hear from him, and get a hug, and just talk. But there is nothing I can do except focus on me right now, and if I hear from him then awesome. If I don't, well, I hope that doesn't happen but it's a definite possibility so I have to keep busy. This weekend I guess I will make it my mission to find a distraction in the form of a make out buddy, male or female. I'm not picky haha.
i've been fucking up on my diet lately and I've noticed a definite moo factor increase, so today I'm hitting it hardcore and I refuse to give in. In fact, today I have had my BFL morning bar, and right now I am eating meal #2, a roasted eggplant and arugala and endive salad, sprinkled with feta and pine nuts. So damn good. I love me some Trader Joe's. It's easy to get healthy pre portioned stuff there that fits in with my diet.
Next meal is at 4:45, and back to the gym for a round of weights and another half hour of cardio. I rushed it this morning and only did about 45 min of cardio because I had my hoohoo waxing appt, which I missed anyway because I misplaced my debit card and did not find it till way after the appt was over. So I had to reschedule for Friday. And it's not like it matters anyway, no one is going to be seeing my hoo hoo regardless- it's only for my sense of cleanliness. So there.
New client tonight. The dude is recovering from brain cancer. This ought to be a challenge.
What is everyone doing for the 4th? Would anyone like to invite me over since I have no plans?
P.S. I almost started bawling at the gym (2nd time today). But on the plus side I burned 750 calories, so I guess that makes up for the emo factor.
Oh and before I left to go to the gym again I almost ran over my parents dog. She was sleeping in front of my truck and I didn't see her because I walked around the back of my truck in to the street to get in and I almost ran the fucker over. Thankfully she is ok, but damn am I talented or what?
Someone kill me please.
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4th of July...hmm. I think i may be rolling up north to Sedona for some drinking, bbq'ing, and swimming. I don't know though, I may end up just staying in town...
I will not kill you
I will be in Simi for the 4th, pigging out at my Mom's house. Of course, I am in charge of bringing dessert. You are welcome to come, but you will most certainly gain 10 lbs. (but we could work it off together, who needs boys? ha-ha)