So I took a bunch of pills yesterday so I could sleep and try to forget about everything. I ended up sleeping from 2 pm or so until about now. I haven't forgotten shit. I woke up crying a bunch of times last night and I'm still crying now.
I broke down and wrote the fucker an email asking him why, and telling him we really need to talk, and I haven't heard back from him. I want to call him, but I know he won't talk to me. He's a horrible person and I don't know why I want him back, why I've put up with such shit for so long, after the things he's done to me. What the fuck is wrong me? Why do I want him back? Why do I love him? I can sit here and remember everything that is shitty that he's done to me and I still want him to call me, at least to talk. I'm fucking pathetic.
I wish I could stop thinking and crying. I wish I could just feel ok again.
My heart fucking hurts so bad right now.
I broke down and wrote the fucker an email asking him why, and telling him we really need to talk, and I haven't heard back from him. I want to call him, but I know he won't talk to me. He's a horrible person and I don't know why I want him back, why I've put up with such shit for so long, after the things he's done to me. What the fuck is wrong me? Why do I want him back? Why do I love him? I can sit here and remember everything that is shitty that he's done to me and I still want him to call me, at least to talk. I'm fucking pathetic.
I wish I could stop thinking and crying. I wish I could just feel ok again.
My heart fucking hurts so bad right now.
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