Ok please don't take this as a boohoo poor-me post, I'm just venting because I am really fucking upset.
So court:
Public defender meeting is Feb 22
Actual hearing is Feb 28
If I'd plead guilty today I could have gotten up to 45 days in jail.
I'm like yeah, I'll go with not guilty on this one and pray my attorney can get the sentance reduced, I mean christ, I've gone sober, I'm in therapy twice a week, and see my regular doctor at least once a week to check my meds. What the fuck else do they want? I had a fucking nervous breakdown and was hospitalized twice after the fact, and I'm still trying to get my life together after that fucking awful time span of August-December. Thanks. I'm sure jail will just really drive the point home that I suck and that I shouldn't hit people even though I've never hit anyone before in my entire life and I was driven past my point of breaking by not only the mind games my bf was playing at the time, but family and work problems (THANKS LAPT), being an alcoholic, as well as the fact that I was trying (and still am) to face the fucking demons from my childhood because I was seriously abused until I was 16, as well as everything that happened to me in Florida, I.E. BEING FUCKING RAPED.
Yeah. Jail should suit me just fine.
I'm going to go lay down.
So court:
Public defender meeting is Feb 22
Actual hearing is Feb 28
If I'd plead guilty today I could have gotten up to 45 days in jail.
I'm like yeah, I'll go with not guilty on this one and pray my attorney can get the sentance reduced, I mean christ, I've gone sober, I'm in therapy twice a week, and see my regular doctor at least once a week to check my meds. What the fuck else do they want? I had a fucking nervous breakdown and was hospitalized twice after the fact, and I'm still trying to get my life together after that fucking awful time span of August-December. Thanks. I'm sure jail will just really drive the point home that I suck and that I shouldn't hit people even though I've never hit anyone before in my entire life and I was driven past my point of breaking by not only the mind games my bf was playing at the time, but family and work problems (THANKS LAPT), being an alcoholic, as well as the fact that I was trying (and still am) to face the fucking demons from my childhood because I was seriously abused until I was 16, as well as everything that happened to me in Florida, I.E. BEING FUCKING RAPED.
Yeah. Jail should suit me just fine.
I'm going to go lay down.
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Cathartic!
I wish you had a happier childhood
HERe's some