God bless credit cards. I will probably never pay mine off, but at least I was able to recertify my CPR and get my NASM certification. I still have to renew AFAA, but that can wait till March.
Now all I need to do is win about $3k on a scratcher and I'll be completely debt free.
P.S. I'm still fucking low and I hate this. I need someone to hold me and let me cry. Why am I so fucking sad?? The last time I felt this sad the only way I finally felt better was when I got another tattoo. Maybe it's time for more ink. Take this fucking stupid sadness out on my arm. Jesus tapdancing christ, I'm lame.
Fuck and now I want a drink. Weak.
Now all I need to do is win about $3k on a scratcher and I'll be completely debt free.
P.S. I'm still fucking low and I hate this. I need someone to hold me and let me cry. Why am I so fucking sad?? The last time I felt this sad the only way I finally felt better was when I got another tattoo. Maybe it's time for more ink. Take this fucking stupid sadness out on my arm. Jesus tapdancing christ, I'm lame.
Fuck and now I want a drink. Weak.
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thats why i had my forearms done.... i'm big on the whole stop dwelling, start doing and my forearms remind me of that...
so a block of text that means something to you, something someone has said to cheer you up in the past or something wise that someone has said to make you see things arent as bad as they appear etc.
still cant help with the hug as i'm still no closer than i was the other day, but a great big hug in spirit is winging its way across the ocean
don't have a drink though, be strong, stick it out... certainly no pills... to many of my friends turn straight to them when they're down.... christ i hate it... is far to easy a solution... except its not it just delays...
anyway got side tracked then
why doesnt amazon sell tattoos... you could put them on your wish list... i'd buy you one then as a cheer you up gift... maybe next time im in CA working (couple of months) i'll treat you to one
hope you're feeling alittle happier
never know... maybe that scratch card will come in today
and your fella is just as lucky a lad... it just seems like he doesnt realize it often enough... but i'm sure he will... and if not... trust me, its his loss, not yours
how true that quote is...
actually the quote on my forearms maybe extremely relevant to you in you current situation...
when near ink, one gets stained black
when near vermillion, one gets stained red
...
think on it
helps me out a lot
a lot of people ask what it means to which i always tell them... think on it
they also ask what vermillion is... incase you dont know... its like ink... only red
hope you smile soon... you better... i dont want to have to come all the way over there just to see you smile
but next time i am in CA, the drinks (fruit juice of course
speak soon