I am an ass and I am weak, but I think what happened turned out for the best.
I ended up calling Nick on Sunday and left a message just to say hi and see how he was doing. He called me back and we started talking and decided to hang out yesterday. We had a really good talk, and surprisingly, we're back together and we're spending this next weekend together. To quote him, he is forreally mine. I am happy but wary. I'm still gonna do my own thing until I know he's serious about this and me and isn't going to hurt me again. Until then, eyes open, dates accepted, and if things get shady I'm walking. At least I know I can do it if I have to. He told me he loved me and things didn't feel right without me around, and I told him I missed him back. I don't know to trust him on the love thing, so I'm not going to make anything of it.
Feel free to tell me how stupid I am. My cousin already bitched me out for 30 minutes telling me I was insane. What can I say? I care and I want to work things out, so I'll give it one last shot. I'm a lot stronger because of what happened, so if it goes to shit again I know I can get through it.
I'm going out with Hot Tattoo Girl and my best friend Joy tonight for drinks and man bashing, because I can still do that.
Other than that, I have been eating everything in sight and need to watch out or I will end up with a spare tire and a bakers dozen of rolls on my tummy.
The end.
I ended up calling Nick on Sunday and left a message just to say hi and see how he was doing. He called me back and we started talking and decided to hang out yesterday. We had a really good talk, and surprisingly, we're back together and we're spending this next weekend together. To quote him, he is forreally mine. I am happy but wary. I'm still gonna do my own thing until I know he's serious about this and me and isn't going to hurt me again. Until then, eyes open, dates accepted, and if things get shady I'm walking. At least I know I can do it if I have to. He told me he loved me and things didn't feel right without me around, and I told him I missed him back. I don't know to trust him on the love thing, so I'm not going to make anything of it.
Feel free to tell me how stupid I am. My cousin already bitched me out for 30 minutes telling me I was insane. What can I say? I care and I want to work things out, so I'll give it one last shot. I'm a lot stronger because of what happened, so if it goes to shit again I know I can get through it.
I'm going out with Hot Tattoo Girl and my best friend Joy tonight for drinks and man bashing, because I can still do that.
Other than that, I have been eating everything in sight and need to watch out or I will end up with a spare tire and a bakers dozen of rolls on my tummy.
The end.
Sometimes we concentrate on one star instead of seeing the whole universe. Hope it works out IF this is really what you want.
Did you get the mp3 I sent you?