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So my sister called me today and needs me to model for her! Apparently her school (Paul Mitchell) is having a show or something and the students have to bring in models and do their hair and make up and have them do a photo shoot. She wants to do my hairand make up all renaissance/gothic and I get to go find a gothicy costume or corset or something and have professional pictures taken of me looking hopefully uber hot. I'm really excited! I've been feeling so blah and yucky lately and insecure, so this will be a nice change and hopefully help me feel a little better. Plus, I've always wanted to do a photo shoot and have pro hair and make up, even if it's just for a couple hours. It should be fun, and hopefully I can keep the pictures.

I still miss Nick horribly, but I'm dealing. I've decided not to call him at all this week, and if he wants to go to the Laker game with me Sunday, he will just have to call. I doubt he will (he needs space, remember?) so if anyone would like to accompany me to the game hit me up.

I actually had a date tonight, but I cancelled. It's too soon. I love him and I don't want to be with anyone else, so I just have to wait this out and take care of me in the meantime. If it doesn't work out, now would not be the time to start dating again anyway. I'll need to recover for a long time. Hopefully it will not come to that, I want things to work out. Please pray for us guys, I love him dearly and hope things come around soon.

Thanking you in advance

xoxo
Mary