violently

update:

so the adderall made me feel SO MUCH better. however, i am still exhausted. apparently i was given a 12 hour pill and about 6 hours in i was like ok, goodnight. so either i need a different dosage or maybe it still isn't the right med, but my head is still clear though and i feel hopeful again. that light at the end of the tunnel just might not be a train.

more tomorrow. good night.