vervain______

sometimes i wish
i had more
and
that pit
grows.
it has the mind
of a small child.
it wants me
to hold it
and show it
around.
add its burden,
that scream
(it never asks nicely,
never plays by the rules.)
taking me
(do i let it?)
sometimes
i want to try
and give it
everything
i can
and that
is always
too much.