i don't like sundays (i think it stems from my childhood and hating public school so much) but it is a beautiful day. an inhalation of the outside air has done wonders for my mood. better, even, than the coffee.(that's a shocker) i need to take better care of myself. this includes, drinking more water, taking my vitamins, slowing down a bit on the coffee consumption, exercising, and, good lord, no more ice cream! i had some heathbar crunch late at night yesterday, justifying the intake by telling myself that would be the last time. mostly, it has been. ice cream is so heavy. it is (almost) sickening. i actually did feel sick after i ate it. after doing the vegan thing faithfully (okay, i confess, i have the coffee place put real cream in my coffee, so i couldn't call myself a vegan) heavy dairy is unnatural to me.
love to all.
love to all.
Honestly, I've been through the whole gamut of emotions about this, good/bad pro/con, and when it gets down to brass tacks, that's what my gut is telling me. It's corporate, now.
I don't believe in the word "sellout". I think that they are doing what they are led to do, and more power to them.
I wish them much success. But I don't know if i want to be a part of it, I feel like I don't belong here anymore.
The friendships and contacts I've made an extend beyond the site, and in some cases, they do.
Another thing... I'm an artist and a writer. Not only was I here for friendship and community, I was here to promote myself in subtle, compassionate, and pleasing ways. I don't feel comfortable presenting my work in this format. It's not only what I do, it's also who I am. I appreciate the exposure, but I want it on my terms.
So... I'll hang around for a while, see what happens, see how I feel in a few days.
And if nothings changed inside of me, I'm gone.
Please, please, If you're so led, drop me a line to keep in touch.
I'd like that very much.
-b.