So, I hope everyone is well.
My new neighbors either side of me seem really excellent.
My band seems to have fallen apart because of the guitarist being dramatic. **shrug** Oh well..... I will keep on the search.
Monday I had an anxiety attack at work. I was reading something so benign, and BANG, it was like blowing a line of gear. Heart rate shot up, I had the shakes, dizziness, nausea, and just wanted to talk to some one about random anythings for 5 or 10 minutes. ! This had been building over a week from various things.
One colleague looked away from her computer long enough to tell me go to see a Dr. The other asked me to fill the photocopier. Both these people know I have difficult times. I felt brushed off.
I managed to get my shit together enough to attend my recognition of prior learning meeting at TAFE. That was, good but scary. I am still working through the paperwork.
All week I have felt pretty low. I have been drinking all week. I always try to never do that. I also took a day off work.
Then I woke Saturday morning to the news that Charlotte Dawson died. I presume she took her own life. Although I wasn't a fan per se, I understood where she came from when she spoke to the media about things.
Today I made some yummy veg burgers.
How the fuck do you meet people????!!!! I miss feeling important to someone.
I had some beer with a friend yesterday.
I am mad crazy for a bike ride or jog at the moment, but it is fast getting too hot to do it. It is almost 37 degrees and it just went 11am. Might go later in afternoon.
Losing interest in SG. Nothing personal to the nice people I have the pleasure of interacting with through here. Just, yeh. Ya know. **shrug***
Boot camp yesterday was funny and painful. As usual.
I ramble.
Be good.
