So we all know that when the new year rolls around it gives us an opportunity to put the past to bed and focus on new goals or rekindle old ones. Last year was the first year i put a conscious effort into my goals, i got into the gym, became a vegetarian and in hand started eating much healthier, quit smoking(for a few months) and tried to improve my drawing skills. I was doing really well until i started my old job as a door to door fundraiser, now fundraising isn't just a job it's pretty much a lifestyle because it completely consumes your life due to the amount of time and effort you put in, now the hours were a part of the job but the effort wasn't, i did so because i had a flare for it and wanted to become really good at it, and i was. But my life was put on hold, i had no time for anything, whenever i had time off i was so exhausted that all i wanted to do was nothing at all. In office problems started to arise in the few months leading up to christmas. I had demoted myself due to issues with management, i was miserable because of them and in turn the not so friendly people i encountered on the doors started to get to me, so i started to look for another job.
And i got one! and i purposefully went for a job that requires little effort, back to retail i went! ^.~ I started this new job last week and i can't say i like it, infact i detest it. purely for the fact they want you to care about the job where as i just wanted it for the fact it's a million times less stressful and time consuming than my other job. Giving me the opportunity to focus on what i love the most, which is drawing. So i've put in a lot more effort than last year to achieve my goals and the rewards have already started to roll in, i've now been offered an opportunity to work at my friends place of work where the hours are a million times better, and even though it won't be the mind numbing boring job i wanted just for the break, the effort i need to put in will result in another thing i absolutely love doing, and that's impacting peoples lives for the better. As the role is working with adults with mild learning difficulties. I've already noticed a improvement on my drawing skills which is giving me more motivation to keep going.
Now the reason i'm focusing so much on this is because i want to be a tattoo artist! Art has been a passion of mine since i was a wee pup, it soothes my core, making me happy and peaceful. Now i know it's not as easy as 'well you can draw, good, now you can tattoo people'. It will take all my time and effort, it will cause frustration, upset and a bruised ego. With that all in mind, i still want it, i want to fight for it, i don't expect it to be easy and i nor do i want it to be, because nothing worth having is. And i think that attitude and determination will push me to where i wanna be. The ultimate goal is to have my own shop with my best friend, a successful business that will enable me to travel regularly and do what makes me happy. I use to be happy just floating through life being a nobody and just having fun but now i want to be somebody, i want to be good at something that makes me feel more like me then anything else. Even if i fall flat on my face i will still be happy because i took the fear i have of being judged and failing and turned it into my strength. Life will continue to try and beat me to my knees but i'm done letting it! It's time to nut the fuck up and roll with the punches, this life i have now i will never get back. so whats the point if i don't make it count for something?!
Love to you all and best wishes in your goals and adventures! ^.^
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