Suckerpunched By Life
Ive had a few hours of sleep so Im going to try to burn through a quick update to catch everything up before work. Ive had a great deal of fun answering questions for everyone, but Im about three days behind on actual journaling now. I hate getting behind.
Friday was a huge pain in the ass. Our food stamps didnt renew, which is highly upsetting because we have no food in the house and after paying $460 in bills we really cant afford to buy food for the next couple of weeks. Mad stress, that, and I was really upset for the kids since Id been promising them wed get our pumpkins for Halloween. Fortunately, in an example of what goes around comes around, Ocean and Stitch offered buy us some food to get us through the weekend until Wyspurr can go down to the services office Monday.
We also had a great deal of headache over getting our gas bill paid. Friday was the cut off date. Wed been trying to get it paid for days, but the place we pay the bill has had computer problems. So, as much as we hated to we tried going to the other payment center. It was packed wall to wall with people, so we took a pass planning to go back after we went to Ocean and Stitchs since the place is open until ten.
We were en route to Ocean and Stitches place when whorlwind called and asked if he wanted him to come over so we could have a group talk about some arguing wed all done earlier. Thinking that would be a good idea, we headed back to the house and had our discussion. The main topic was something Wyspurr did that was both very disrespectful and completely irrational. Wed just had a fight about how I didnt want her having breakfast with whorlwind while I was at work today (and about how Id thought Id already told her no a few days ago when she brought it up), then twenty minutes later she told whorlwind that as far as she knew they were still on. When I called her on it, she said I hadnt said nowhich is absurd, considering that was the whole argument wed just had. That I remembered telling her no a few day ago and she remembers me saying maybe. Which is quite possible, but I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that Id said no when it was brought up this time. She heard the words no, she clearly admitted when whorlwind and I were talking to her about it. Shed just decided that because I hadnt been clear about why it bothered me that it didnt count.
Granted, my reason for not wanting them to have breakfast wasnt totally rational. When Wyspurr first brought it up it was in the context of her having breakfast with whorlwind, then going to the Candler Park Festival in the afternoon. I was fine with the later activity, but I was still feeling a bit pissy about the fact that Wyspurr had asked to have breakfast with whorlwind last Saturday and that ended up being an all day thing. Shed been 20 minutes late picking me up from work even though I called her half an hour earlier than usual, as Id gotten out early because I was feeling sick. So I had to wait for half an hour at work, and when she pulled up with whorlwind in the car I was really upset about it. Work gets me really wound up and I need some decompression time after work before Im fit company for humans. I enjoy hanging out with whorlwind and dont generally mind him coming, but in that specific instance I was really annoyed since Id been asked one thing and it had turned into another. So I was reluctant to approve of them having breakfast together today because I was paranoid about repeating last Saturday.
Anyway, everything was talked about. All is well that ends well. I even green lighted then having breakfast while Im at work and us all going to the Candler Park Festival together after work. I can generally be pretty reasonable if people just talk to me. whorlwind agreed that last Saturday had been pretty inconsiderate towards me, and that what Wyspurr had done about saying they were still on was pretty messed up on general principle. Sometimes I just have to feel acknowledged and understood before I can feel safe enough to compromise (or in this case just let them do what they wanted to in the first place and just deal with it). I was able to see that the thing that had bothered me the most was that it had taken me by surprise because I hadnt agreed to or expected whorlwind being with her when she picked me up from work. If Id just known beforehand it wouldnt have been an issue at all, and thats what this time will be. Ill know because we talked about it, and so I wont have any reason to be annoyed.
At any rate, this is what pretty much consumed my Friday. Id wanted to go to Ocean and Stitchs to help Ocean figure out how to get online now that he has a computer and phone line at his house while Stitch and Wyspurr went to the grocery store. However, it was so late I figured Id better sit it out and get some sleep before work. That was probably for the best, as I needed the rest and it lead whorlwind to go with Wyspurr instead and hes better at computers than I am anyway so.
I did also spend a good bit of time chatting with Brenda on IRC and the phone. I miss her so much. The more I talk to her, the more I want to talk to her and the more I want to be holding her.
Another nice thing was I noticed that The_LL had left a nice testimonial for me on SG. It was completely out of nowhere and unexpected as I havent seen her in months, so it was a bit of a treat. I love getting testimonials. They make me feel like people know I exist when Im not in the room.
Wednesday and Thursday are blank slates in my memory. I dont remember what I did, if anything, which really isnt too cool. Im pretty sure nothing worthwhile happened either day.
Ive had a few hours of sleep so Im going to try to burn through a quick update to catch everything up before work. Ive had a great deal of fun answering questions for everyone, but Im about three days behind on actual journaling now. I hate getting behind.
Friday was a huge pain in the ass. Our food stamps didnt renew, which is highly upsetting because we have no food in the house and after paying $460 in bills we really cant afford to buy food for the next couple of weeks. Mad stress, that, and I was really upset for the kids since Id been promising them wed get our pumpkins for Halloween. Fortunately, in an example of what goes around comes around, Ocean and Stitch offered buy us some food to get us through the weekend until Wyspurr can go down to the services office Monday.
We also had a great deal of headache over getting our gas bill paid. Friday was the cut off date. Wed been trying to get it paid for days, but the place we pay the bill has had computer problems. So, as much as we hated to we tried going to the other payment center. It was packed wall to wall with people, so we took a pass planning to go back after we went to Ocean and Stitchs since the place is open until ten.
We were en route to Ocean and Stitches place when whorlwind called and asked if he wanted him to come over so we could have a group talk about some arguing wed all done earlier. Thinking that would be a good idea, we headed back to the house and had our discussion. The main topic was something Wyspurr did that was both very disrespectful and completely irrational. Wed just had a fight about how I didnt want her having breakfast with whorlwind while I was at work today (and about how Id thought Id already told her no a few days ago when she brought it up), then twenty minutes later she told whorlwind that as far as she knew they were still on. When I called her on it, she said I hadnt said nowhich is absurd, considering that was the whole argument wed just had. That I remembered telling her no a few day ago and she remembers me saying maybe. Which is quite possible, but I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that Id said no when it was brought up this time. She heard the words no, she clearly admitted when whorlwind and I were talking to her about it. Shed just decided that because I hadnt been clear about why it bothered me that it didnt count.
Granted, my reason for not wanting them to have breakfast wasnt totally rational. When Wyspurr first brought it up it was in the context of her having breakfast with whorlwind, then going to the Candler Park Festival in the afternoon. I was fine with the later activity, but I was still feeling a bit pissy about the fact that Wyspurr had asked to have breakfast with whorlwind last Saturday and that ended up being an all day thing. Shed been 20 minutes late picking me up from work even though I called her half an hour earlier than usual, as Id gotten out early because I was feeling sick. So I had to wait for half an hour at work, and when she pulled up with whorlwind in the car I was really upset about it. Work gets me really wound up and I need some decompression time after work before Im fit company for humans. I enjoy hanging out with whorlwind and dont generally mind him coming, but in that specific instance I was really annoyed since Id been asked one thing and it had turned into another. So I was reluctant to approve of them having breakfast together today because I was paranoid about repeating last Saturday.
Anyway, everything was talked about. All is well that ends well. I even green lighted then having breakfast while Im at work and us all going to the Candler Park Festival together after work. I can generally be pretty reasonable if people just talk to me. whorlwind agreed that last Saturday had been pretty inconsiderate towards me, and that what Wyspurr had done about saying they were still on was pretty messed up on general principle. Sometimes I just have to feel acknowledged and understood before I can feel safe enough to compromise (or in this case just let them do what they wanted to in the first place and just deal with it). I was able to see that the thing that had bothered me the most was that it had taken me by surprise because I hadnt agreed to or expected whorlwind being with her when she picked me up from work. If Id just known beforehand it wouldnt have been an issue at all, and thats what this time will be. Ill know because we talked about it, and so I wont have any reason to be annoyed.
At any rate, this is what pretty much consumed my Friday. Id wanted to go to Ocean and Stitchs to help Ocean figure out how to get online now that he has a computer and phone line at his house while Stitch and Wyspurr went to the grocery store. However, it was so late I figured Id better sit it out and get some sleep before work. That was probably for the best, as I needed the rest and it lead whorlwind to go with Wyspurr instead and hes better at computers than I am anyway so.
I did also spend a good bit of time chatting with Brenda on IRC and the phone. I miss her so much. The more I talk to her, the more I want to talk to her and the more I want to be holding her.
Another nice thing was I noticed that The_LL had left a nice testimonial for me on SG. It was completely out of nowhere and unexpected as I havent seen her in months, so it was a bit of a treat. I love getting testimonials. They make me feel like people know I exist when Im not in the room.
Wednesday and Thursday are blank slates in my memory. I dont remember what I did, if anything, which really isnt too cool. Im pretty sure nothing worthwhile happened either day.
onie:
just wanted to let ya know im keeping up with your life.. sometimes i read it and forget to comment.. 